Chapter 20:
I couldn't believe what he was saying.
Just minutes earlier I recieved several texts from Gareth saying that he wanted me back and all that. I tried to tell him no, but he kept on going. I suggested we should meet and talk about it, so he could stop talking to me. And of course, Guy saw that I was typing to Gareth. And that's when hell would break loose.
The words he said was still echoing inside my head. "Maybe I should've let you die instead. That way, you wouldn't have all these problems"
Later, he sent a text.
From: Guy Berryman
I didn't mean all of that. I'm sorry x
I think deep down I knew that he didn't mean it. But the other side of me truly believed that Guy wanted me dead. And unfortunately, I let that side win.
I once lost the love of my life, and suddenly he returned, but now I don't want him back. And now I lost the one I love. I'm pretty sure Guy wants nothing to do with me. He made that clear.
And sure, it was years ago I was in my depression, but that doesn't mean that I never have suicidal thoughts anymore. And today was going to be one of those days. Why should I stay here when no one wants to see me? Luckily, I had sleeping pills at home. I have thought about doing this a few times, but I have never actually done it. I sat down on the floor besides my bed and opened the lid. I poured all the pills that were left into the palm of my hand. Eleven pills. I had a glass of water on my night stand, which I grabbed with my other hand.
Three, two one...here we go. I shoved all the pills into my mouth and chugged down the water. I felt nothing. Then I started crying. What if I die soon? What if this was a mistake? I started to feel dizzy, and without a second thought, I called the first person that came up on my phone, which was Will.
"Noelle, what's up?"
"Will"
"Noelle?"
"Help me Will", was all I could say before everything went black.
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(Will's P.O.V.)
My phone buzzed besides me in the couch. Was it her? I looked at the cracked screen. Noelle.
"Noelle, what's up?",
"Will", she breathed. She sounded weak. Something wasn't right.
"Noelle?", I asked.
"Help me Will"
"Noelle, are you alright? Noelle?", she wasn't answering. Adrenaline started to pump through my veins. The same kind of adrenaline as when we saved her. I acted as quickly as I could. I called Guy straight away.
"Hey Will"
"Guy, are you at home?", I shouted.
"Yes, why? You sound stressed"
"Be ready outside in five. I'm picking you up"
"Why? What is happening Will?"
"It's Noelle", I said and hung up. I knew that Guy would understand the message.
Five minutes later I arrived at Guy's house. As he fastened his seatbelt I told him about the phone call. "Fuck!", he yelled. "It's all my fault"
I was confused. "What did you do?"
"We had a fight, and before I left I said that it would have been better if she just died that night. I'm so stupid, Will"
I wanted to punch him in the face. "That is the most stupid thing one can ever do, Guy! She's fragile for God's sake. She has already tried to kill herself once!"
The following hour felt like it passed by in slow motion. We ran up to her floor and to our relief, the door was unlocked. We headed straight to her bedroom, where she was lying on the floor. She had passed out, but whimpered a little, which at least was a sign that she still was alive. Guy picked her up in his arms, just like that night on the beach. We ran down to the car without locking the door and drove to the hospital as fast as we could. While there, we couldn't follow her all the way in. A nurse stopped us outside as they carried her inside another room.
Guy was crying like never before. I don't think I've ever seen him like this.
After a while the nurse came up to us. I don't think Guy was paying any attention to her, since his face was buried in my shoulder. "She's awake. I would recommend one visitor at a time"
Guy looked at me, completely lost. "I think it's best if I go first", I said to him, and he nodded. I walked with the nurse to the room. "She's lucky to have you. If you would have come just five minutes later than you did, she wouldn't have woken up"
I tried to calm myself down. I took a deep breath before walking in to her.
She smiled a weak smile when she saw me. "Thank you", she whispered. "I'm glad you called", I said and hugged her. I sat with her for a while before she spoke. "You won't tell the others, right?"
I gave her an apologetic look. "Guy is here aswell. He helped me take you here"
She fell silent. "I'm sorry", was all I could say. "I think he wants to see you"
She nodded. I took that as my cue to leave.
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(Guy's P.O.V.)
Will left the room and I slowly walked inside. There she was, paler and weaker than ever. And it was all my fault.
"Noelle, I should never have said that, and you know I didn't mean it", I whispered as I walked closer to her. "I'm so stupid, I was just-"
Before I could continue, she kissed me. Her lips touched mine. Her soft lips moved against mine. She kissed me, even though I made her want to commit suicide. I didn't deserve this girl. She tried to pull me closer, but she was too weak. But I understood, and came closer. My hands held the back of her head as her lips stayed on mine. I never wanted it to end. She slowly pulled away, completely out of breath. She was still weak.
Tears started running down my cheeks once again as a huge smile spread across my face. I pressed my forehead against hers. She panted heavily. "I chose you, Guy", she whispered. I closed my eyes and listened to her breathing. "I know you did. I'm just stupid"
She dried my tears with her thumbs and smiled at me. "Noelle, I would do anything in the whole world to make you forgive me"
"The only thing I want right now is for you to come a little closer", she said. And as I did, her lips touched mine once again.
