Chapter 11:
*Three weeks earlier*
The hallway was really crowded today. I was at the fifth floor, trying to find my locker, number 528. My first period was starting in 15 minutes and I certainly didn't want to be late on the first day. Or the first day of my second year. I smiled to myself. I actually made it through the first year although my depression and the fact that I don't like either studying or the people reading the same courses as me. I feel so small in here. Alisa is working instead of going to Uni, and I'm actually quite jealous. I don't feel like I belong here, although I never feel like I belong anywhere.
I thought of Gareth. I knew he would've loved this. He liked studying and he was always interested in stuff. He wanted to be a biology teacher. I sighed to myself. It felt like I was slowly coming over Gareth. No, I would never get over him, but it hurt less everytime I thought about him. I didn't hurt so much that I wanted to die anymore. And I didn't cry everytime I thought about him. Sometimes I even smiled at the good times we had. I wasn't over him, but I had accepted that he wouldn't come back and that life goes on either way.
I thought of how fun Uni would've been if he were here. Or Alisa for that matter. We had been inseparable the past years, but she's felt a bit off recently. She's been a bit busy and zoning out a lot.
Suddenly the bell rang, telling us to go to our classrooms. I found my way there pretty fast. I found myself a seat and waited for the period to start. "Hi there pretty girl, can I sit here?", someone said and I said yes. He was probably around my age, with green eyes and dirty blonde hair. He reminded me of Gareth in some ways. When the period was over he reached for my hand. "I'm Tyler". I took his hand and answered. "Noelle".
He smiled. "A beautiful girl deserves a beautiful name", he said and blinked one eye. I rolled my eyes, but a smile spread across my face. He smiled even wider and left the classroom. I bet he says that to everyone, but I still felt a bit flattered. It was a long time ago someone told me that I was beautiful, and a long time ago I felt beautiful.
The day went by slowly and I mostly daydreamed about Tyler the whole day. It kind of scared me that I thought about someone else than Gareth. And also the fact that I had developed a crush in less than three hours wasn't good at all. I mentally told myself that this little crush only was temporary and that I mostly thought about him just because I was bored.
I called Alisa and she answered. "What's up, Al?"
"Oh nothing much, I have one hour left here, but I'm coming after okay?"
"Sounds perfect. See you at home"
"Okay. See you"
"Bye"
I crashed on my bed the second I stepped inside my room. Although I've made it through Uni so far, it still was exhausting for me just to talk to people I wasn't really comfortable around. Just to go grocery shopping could be a project for a whole day for me.
Before I knew it, Alisa appeared in the doorway. "How was it?"
"It was okay, I'm just really exhausted"
She chuckled and took off her backpack. "I can see that". She lied down on the bed together with me. I cuddled up besides her. "Oh and this really good-looking guy tried to hit on me"
"Oh...", Alisa seemed quite disappointed. "But he seems like a player though", I added so that she wouldn't feel like I left her for some stupid boy in Uni.
We layed there besides each other for a while, both of us scrolling through social medias. Suddenly, she spoke in a low voice. "Noelle?"
"Mhm", I answered, not really paying attention.
"There's something I need to tell you"
I was now listening carefully. "Tell me Alisa"
"There's two things actually, and I feel awful for not telling you earlier, but I just couldn't"
I remained silent and she continued.
"Look, please don't get mad at me for this. I know you don't feel the same way as me, but I think that...I think I love you Noelle"
I was shocked. "Like...love as more than a friend?"
She nodded. "I recently figured that I'm bisexual. You know I liked Gareth before, but this is something different. I have strong feelings for you Noelle"
"I'm so sorry Alisa, but I don't feel the same way"
"I know, and I understand that this changes a lot. And that's where we come to the second thing I need to tell you"
"Which is?"
"I'm moving to France in two weeks"
My whole world just collapsed. "Why?"
"I've got a job in Paris on a very fancy restaurant. And mostly because I can't stand being around you when I know that you will never feel the same way"
I was crying by now. "But we can still be friends. I'm sure you will find someone better than me here!"
Tears spilled out of her eyes. "It will tear me apart to see you with someone else, but I don't want to stop you to live your life just because I'm in love with you".
"But you showed me to live this life, Al. You know I'm not interested in a relationship. We'll work this out!"
"Don't make this hard. This is the best for us, Noelle"
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A/N:
Aaaaahhh what is happening???
Excitement in the house!!!
~kiwibananaxx
