Chapter 12:
The days without Alisa are empty. It's only been a few days since she moved, but we have barely spoken to each other. She wanted to get me out of her head, and I understand and respect that, but it's so lonely here. I just wish she wouldn't have catched these feelings for me. I feel horrible that I can't feel the same for her. My thoughts were interrupted when Tyler came up to me in the cafeteria. "Noelle, right?"
"Mhm", I hummed as an answer. "Mind if I sit here?"
I gestured for him to sit down in front of me. "Don't you have other friends to sit with?", I asked friendly as he unpacked his lunch. "Well yes but, I today I wanted to sit with you"
Suprisingly, Tyler was actually nice. I thought he would be the typical douche boy, but he proved me wrong. We could talk about anything which only made me like him more. After a while of joking around he said: "If you don't mind me asking, do you have a boyfriend?"
I smiled a little and sighed. "I don't"
Tyler smiled. "And I've been thinking this whole time that I would have to give up on you. But how is it possible that you're not taken?"
"He passed away three years ago"
Tyler was caught off guard. "Noelle, I'm sorry I-"
"Tyler, it's fine. I'm okay"
It actually felt good in some way to say out loud that Gareth was gone. It felt like it was now okay to move on, because he was never coming back, and I've known that this whole time. But now when I'd said it out loud, it felt like I confirmed it once and for all. It actually felt good. I felt free.
"This may be a horrible question in this moment, but would you go out on a date with me?"
"Maybe, it depends on what day", I answered with a smile on my face. It made me sound like a busy woman, when in fact, all I did after school was laying on my bed and listening to music. I didn't even have a friend outside school anymore.
"I was thinking tonight", Tyler said and winked flirtingly.
"Tonight sounds like a great night to me", was my answer before I stood up to go to my next period. He felt his eyes burn on me while I walked out of the room.
While at home I hopped into the shower, since I didn't have too much time before Tyler would pick me up. I decided on a grey longsleeved dress and black leggings since it was getting colder outside.
Tyler picked me up exactly as planned. He eyed me from head to toe. "You look absolutely stunning, Noelle"
I felt my cheeks go warm and I thought of something to say back. "Well right back at you, gorgeous"
Tyler took me to a little italian restaurant, where the staff was nice and the food was delicious.
The whole night went so smooth. It was never awkward to be around Tyler, and we could always laugh about things. We really clicked.
As we walked back to his car, I felt his fingers besides mine. His discretly entwined them with mine and I smiled to myself. After pulling up on my driveway, he blurted out "I know it's only the first date, but would you mind a little kiss?"
I smiled even wider than before. "I wouldn't mind at all"
And with that, he kissed me.
The next day I woke up with a smile on my face. Uni suddenly wasn't so bad after all. I got myself ready in a slow pace and succesfully arrived at school before my lesson had started.
At lunch I ate quickly so I would have time to talk to Tyler for a while. Surprisingly, I hadn't seen him all day. But on the other hand, all my lessons were in the 5th floor, so for all I know, he could be on any other floor.
And I was right. There, on the other end of the 3rd floor, was Tyler, making out with another girl. She was leaning against her locker, their bodies pressed tightly together. He started kissing her neck and she smiled as she moaned in pleasure.
What worried me the most was that I barely felt anything. I just stood there watching. I didn't feel rage inside of me. I didn't feel like I was going to cry. I felt a bit dissapointed in Tyler, but except that, I was just numb.
I stood there until Tyler looked my way. His eyes widened in surprise and I saw how he thought of something to say.
"Save it, Tyler. Honestly, I'm not even mad at you, just disappointed. Do what the fuck you want with your life. I'm done with this place anyways", I muttered as I turned around.
I continued all the way up to the 5th floor, where I gathered all personal stuff from my locker and started heading home. I'm not going back to that place again. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of this whole place, this city. There's nothing good left for me here. My boyfriend is dead and my best friend just left.
"Mum!", I shouted when I came home. No answer. Of course, they are working. I suddenly remebered that Alisa's brother, Jake, moved to London about a year ago. I dialed his number and he picked up pretty soon.
"Noelle, it wasn't exactly yesterday I heard from you"
"Hi Jake, I'm sorry to disturb whatever you're doing. I have a question"
"Shoot"
"I'm leaving Edinburgh. Can I stay at your place in London until I find something else"
"Of course, you're like a sister to me. Mi casa es tu casa"
"Thank you Jake. I'll tell you when I get there"
"And I'll be waiting for you"
"You're the best. Once again, thank you"
"No problems. See you Noelle"
Without even thinking twice, I packed two big suitcases with clothes and other neccesary stuff. I would come back here to visit, so I wouldn't need all of my stuff.
I called for a cab to pick me up and soon enough, I was in a car that would take me away from this place that I used to call home.
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A/N:
Finally some serious stuff happening!
What do you think is going to happen after this?
~kiwibananaxx
