Chapter 16:
"Guy, tell her about when we were in Milano!", Chris laughed. We had been talking about their tour memories for the past twenty minutes now. Guy looked down at his feet. "Come on, it's so funny!", Chris continued.
Guy cleared his throat. "Okay, so we were in Milano, and this girl came up to me and asked for a kiss on her cheek, while her friend was supposed to take a picture", he started. While he talked I noticed how beautiful he was. How beautiful he was when he talked and how beautiful he was when he smiled. He continued. "So I thought it was quite uncomfortable, so to make it a bit less awkward I was going to lean in with like a big gesture. But it all ended up with me knocking this girl so that she fell down on the floor"
The guys burst out laughing. "You should have seen it Noelle! It was one of the best moments in my life!"
I realized how much these guys have been through together. They have literally been around the world with each other. And here I am, the longest trip I've done in my life was to Belgium for a swimming competition. And I realized how different me and Guy was. He's a worldwide famous star that have played in venues for thousands of people, while I'm a girl whose dreams of being a swimmer was destroyed by a depression that stopped me from doing all those things I earlier thought I would. But even though we are living two completely different lives, I think I like him a little bit more than planned.
I thought about what Will and me talked about just an hour ago. If Guy would ask me out, I would have to say yes. But I think both me and Will knew I secretly want him to ask right away. I don't know why I try to keep up this image of me not liking him. I'll admit that I don't try to make it seem like I hate him atleast, but I still keep on running away from him when all he's trying to do is to get to know me better. And after almost three years since their concert, he's still trying to get to me when all I do is running away from him. It's been almost three years, and I've been thinking about him a lot. And now I'm here, with the four of them, talking about funny memories.
I glanced at the clock, it was getting late. "I think I should be heading home soon"
"Will you let me drive you home?", Guy asked. The rain was pouring outside. "Fine", was my answer as I glanced at Will, that was already looking my way. He raised his eyebrows and smirked a little. Shortly after we left Will's house and headed to Guy's car. The boys were really sweet and invited me to just catch up anytime. "So what did you think of today?", he asked as we put on our seatbelts. "I actually liked it. It was nice to get to know them a bit better. Will is really nice"
He gave me the look. "But you're the nicest one, of course", I said and he smiled as soon as I said it. "I know, darling"
All the way home we were just small talking, but when he stopped outside my house and I reached for the door handle, he grabbed me by the arm. "Noelle", he breathed. I turned around to face him. "Are we ok now? I just don't want you to disappear again"
"Guy, I won't disappear again. I can't promise you that we'll meet everyday of the week, but we will meet again, just ask me and we'll figure something out"
"Can I ask you straight away then?", he said as he looked deeply into my eyes. "Yes sure"
"Noelle, will you go out on a date with me? Maybe on friday?"
I thought about what Will said earlier. Did he know what Guy was up to?
"I'd love to, Guy"
He smiled wider than I'd ever seen him smile before. He kissed my hand. "Then you may go, love"
While in my bed, later that night, I thought of everything that happened this day. I had been trying to sleep for a long while, but my brain decided that I needed to rethink this day over and over again. At around 2 am I recieved a text.
From: Guy Berryman
I'm so happy you said yes. I promise I won't let you down x
That didn't make my brain to stop thinking. The thoughts started spinning like they never have before. How could I be so mad at Guy for saving my life, but cry over Gareth, that was the reason I wanted to end my life? And all this just because he was stupid enough to get into drug dealing. How could he keep that from me? And how could he just commit suicide without even sending a little text or just something? And I spent all this time being mad at Guy for just trying to keep me alive?
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