She looked happy and that bothered me for some reason. Though I'd never admit it out loud, she broke my heart in ways I didn't think it could break. I told her little selfish ass that I loved her and in return she said we need a break.
I wanted her to be as miserable as I was right now because then I would know that what she felt for me was real. Sure she said that she loved me back, but as I watched her throw her ass back against every nigga walkin', I wasn't feeling that love.
She had on this white body suit that was mostly backless except for the thin straps that criss crossed across her back and a pair of dark jeans. She was dancin' with her ho ass friends which was good because if I had to see her dance on another nigga then I was gon' be going back to jail.
"What's up wit' you nigga?" Shaun suddenly says from next to me.
I look over at him for a second before staring back at Jaelynn. "What you mean? Ain't shit wrong with me." I really needed a blunt right now but we weren't allowed to smoke in this joint.
"You lookin all sad and shit," my best friend says. "If you want Jaelynn then go get her."
I suck my teeth. "Man, don't nobody want that girl. She way too dramatic."
Shaun chuckles. "Yeah okay. If you don't want her then why have you been staring at her since she got here? You startin to look like a stalker."
I turn my back to her just as she starts to grind on this skinny nigga. "Is this better?" I sarcastically say as I walk towards the lounging area. I plop down hard on the leather sectional causing the people sitting on it to glare at me. Shaun follows and sits down next to me.
"I don't know why y'all being so stupid about this whole situation." He says. "If y'all love each other then y'all should just be together. It's that simple."
I shake my head, growing annoyed with him. All I wanted to do was roll a blunt, grab up one of the little whores at this party, and fuck her until I was forgetting about Jaelynn. The truth was I hadn't been able to fuck another girl since we broke up, no matter how bad the girl was. I was horny as shit and that was only adding to my anger.
"Ain't nobody say that I love her," I reply to my cousin.
"You ain't have to. We live together nigga so therefore I know firsthand what goes on in y'all relationship, I'm there for almost all the fights remember?"
"Exactly," I say. "She always tryna start something with a nigga and that shit was really startin to blow me."
He shakes his head again, looking all disappointed and shit. "I'm there for when y'all make up and from what it sounds like, the shit y'all do after is worth the headache y'all be giving each other. Y'all a good ass couple Elijah and I don't know why you can't just man up and go get yo girl."
I suck my teeth. "I am a man," I angry say as I stand. "And she ain't my girl. Mind yo fuckin business Shaun and go worry about Ranae's ass." I stalk off before I can hear whatever else he had to say.
I wanted my dick sucked and that what I was about to set my mind to do. Fuck stressing over little ass girls who couldn't handle feelings.
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My head was pounding and my eye balls felt dry. I knew this feeling all to well. I had a massive hang over.
I look around my bedroom wondering how I got here. There was also a warm and soft body laying next to me. My heart sped up in my chest until I turn and see that the girl next to me wasn't light skinned with a head full of long, curly hair. She was Hispanic with messy black straight hair, I couldn't see her face since she was facing the other way. I groaned and picked up my phone from my chest to see the time only to see that I had a message from Jaelynn.
