Savior And Mistakes (A Destiel Fanfic)

i thought you forgot...

Recap: I got a call from someone I never thought would call me.

I looked at the caller I.D. and saw Lisa. I could tell I was crying and I didn't care. Everyone but cas thought they where happy tears. "Cas I thought you earsed their memories." "I did. Fuck! I forgot to earase the number. I'm sorry dean I understand if you want to be with her instead." Cas thinks I'm gonna leave him for Lisa. I leaned in and pulled him into a kiss. "I love you cas. Not her. I did at one point. But then you came and I fell in love with you." "Dean you should answer." "Okay." So I answered.
D: hello.
L:I found this number in my phone and I don't know how it got here can I ask who you are?
D: well I'm dean and I think we may have hooked up awhile ago and just didn't remember that we exchanged numbers.
L: okay well can I see you. I would like to put a face to the name.
D: I don't think that is a very good idea as I have just gotten married and my husband and I are getting ready to go on our honeymoon. I'm sorry. I also think its best if you delete my number just so this doesn't happen again.
L: okay goodbye dean.

Why did it hurt saying goodbye again. Maybe since I know I lied to her. She was after all who I had a child with. I was crying again. "Dean we should go home and pack. I'll drive. I promise I'll be careful with baby. I know it hurt but she can't know the truth. Not again." "Cas baby. I need to drive. And I know she can't. But it hurts knowing my son will never remember his father. I secretly had both him and I tested and it came back tgatvi am the father. It hurts I mean I had to kill my daughter before she killed me. Then I had to have my ex fiancé's memory and my sons memory wiped of ever meeting me." "We can still have kids together dean. I want to have kids with you. But only if you're ready." "We can try.