It All Started With A Dare

Chapter 18.

Empty.

That was exactly how I felt. Absolutely and inevitably empty.

No anger or sadness. I just felt a sensation of void.

It was like someone had ripped an important part of my life from me, but what was Jason? And now? Who is he truly? Has he always been someone important and I never realized it?

I would've wanted to punch myself for the way I was feeling, but I didn't have the strength to do that either.

For how long have I been sitting on the floor here in the hallway? The bell rung ages ago, but I was still here with a fixed gaze.

And Dylan? Did I depend that much on him to feel this way? However I had been so cautious. I had been careful in these years, avoiding to get hurt by anyone, but still I'll let that happen with the first person that came along.

I had never been a naive or weak person, so now I was here asking myself how the hell something like that could've happened?

As I continued torturing myself with questions, which I didn't have an answer for, I saw a figure looking at me from far away.

Adam.

Who knew how long he had been there staring at me.

I haven't seen him around lately, neither heard of him from Chanel. I didn't know if I was annoyed with him too, because he certainly knew everything, at the end he was Jason's best friend.

I turned my gaze from him, annoyed by that staring contest, but then with the corner of my eye I saw him heading in my direction.

He seemed hesitant in what to do next and he thought twice before sitting near me. It was an awkward situation and there was tension in the air or probably I was the only one feeling it. The problem was that I've never felt uncomfortable with Adam, but this time was definitely an exception.

Maybe I would feel uncomfortable with anyone right now, because all I wanted was to be alone.

"Are you angry with me?" Adam asked, sitting down in the same position I was in.

Angry with him? I would've given everything to feel a tiny bit of anger. I wasn't even angry with Dylan anymore. The subject in question had totally changed.

"No" I firmly answered.

"It doesn't look like that"

"Did you know too?" I questioned only to have a confirmation, because the answer was already clear in my mind.

Adam looked away and, after he took a deep sigh, he just nodded. I wasn't surprised at all.

"But in my defense I can tell you that I wasn't completely aware of the situation"

"What do you mean?" I asked interested.

"I knew from what Jason told me that Dylan had a relationship with someone else, but I didn't know that he was gay, plus he said that it was just rumours, so I didn't think it was serious" he explained.

I nodded, not capable of talking any further, while Adam continued his speech.

"Anyway, Jason is my best friend since we were little, I've got to know you and your friends and I can now say that I care about you, but this was something that Jason had to tell you, if it was really true. I could never betray him. I know it's a strange example, but think about Chanel. If she told you a secret, would you come and tell me?" He said smiling at me.

"No" I quickly replied, "I would never do something like that to her. It would be her decision to tell you or not"

Adam looked at me satisfied and his smile widened, making me smile as well. He was right, I couldn't blame him, it had nothing to do with him.