Stuck

Cant stop thinking about you.

I pace back and forth in my room, thinking over what just occurred only minutes ago. My mind is racing from the hurtful words that left Nathans lips, that hit hard in the chest straight for my heart. Did he really end things? Or was this all just a minor fight?

I don't know but i know for a fact that i can't deal with the fact of tears falling from my eyes. I need to get out and think straight. I can't stay in my room left alone with my thoughts or i swear i'll go crazy, i need someone. In times like this i wish i had my mother, to talk about girls stuff but she's hardly here so what else am i supposed to do. Liam.

A random thought popped into my head. Liam is the one who always has been there for me, he's the one who always helps me find some form of a distraction and if i do call him up i know for a fact he'll help me through and give me some guidance. After all we are close friends so why don't i put him to good use.

I wipe away my stained cheeks from fallen tears and grab my phone and without hesitation or thinking twice i dial Liam's number.

As I hear liam voice pick up I can't help but feel like my problems went away for a second but deep down I can't stop thinking about Nathan I really do miss him and like but I needed to tell him I don't like to hide secrets from him its not good to start a relasonship with lies.

I just I am lost.

"Hey liam can you come over( as I cry in the phone)"

"Yea sure is everything OK you sound really upset kar what's wrong"

I can't help but cry more to those words because it's like one day me and Nathan are confessing our love for each other then the next thing I new is that he leave me here alone and were not talking the worst part that kills me is that he just left and he doesn't won't to see me again that is what killed me I hate that.

All I need is a distraction to have fun and get out of my room it feels like I have been in here for 2 weeks when I have only been in here for a day.

"I am fine I just need to talk and I need to get out of my room please come I need someone to talk to " as I cry once more with tears coming down slowly

"yea of course kar I'll be over in a sec ok please just stay where you are ok" he sounds like he is screed for me like I am going to do something but i am not I just wish I don't know this thing with Nathan and liam went a little bit better I Don't know I hate this

" ok i will"

as i sit and went for liam i cant help but wont nathan i just cant stop thinking about about him it feels like everything just started and know its over

i just what i need to do is pick between both i need to know which guy i wont ore but if i do that will one of them stay

because all i need right know is for nathan to be ok i need him