Stuck

I cant deal with this

Ok so i am going to continue from the last chapter. Enjoy

"Karstin i do love you too but i cant deal with you saying that and than runing back to liam you have to pick Evan if you think you Dont like liam i think you do so intill you figure out what you want i don't wont to see you"i can tell by nathan saying this hurts him just as much as it hurt me.

I dont know what he is saying i Dont have feelings between liam and Nathan i really like him but i also like liam ok so maybe i do like both but i Dont need time to think about this i like Nathan and liam is just a Friend i think i don't know i need time to think and to clean my head i think.

As i look at them both i see them both hurting from my words and from there's evan though liam didn't say anything i can tell he wanted to but just didnt have the words to becuse i knew deep down he would step up and speck but i am glad he didnt because nathan already hurt me i Dont need two people hurting me today i wont be able to handdle that.

as nathan walks out of the bilding i cant help but cry as i walk out behind him as i look over to him and we stare at each other i can feel the tension bettween us its like we are getting dragged in by one another as i look at him one last time i see tears in his eyes but he wont let them show but i can read right through him. as he looks at me it look like he is going to say something but i just walk away slowly and i do not trun my head around to look at him. because if i do i think ill run back and kiss him. and right know i need to be strong and not show him my weeknees evan though i want him.

as i keep walking i keep thinking about what just happend and how nathan just told me he didnt wont to see me agian intill i get what i wont straight. but its like i already know what i wont i wont him. no one else.
I THINK?

as i run in my houe i slam the door and lock it as i see scott sitting down i cant help but run in to his arms and start to cry in them as i let it all out.

Nathan pro
i cant believe i said that to here but its like it needed to be said but at the same time i still cant belive it. the girl i fell for liks another guy and she dosent eavn know it but i think deep down she dose.

it just killed me when i looked at her face when i sadi what i said i saw the hurt and sadnees in her eyes and i couldnt help but cry on the inside, its not that i dont love her i mean like her i do but she needs to figure out what she wants weather its none of us or one of us she just needs to let me know.
and i need to know.

because god this me not being able to touch her agian or talk to her is going to kill me, i am dying on the inside.

its not that i had to say i dont wont to see her agian but i only said that because she needs to know what she wants, it just killed me saying that i saw so much hurt in her eyes and it killed me but i had to.

when i went out side i wanted to cool off i was going to run back in there and grab her and kiss her god i miss her kiss, and i miss her. but i held my ground not to do it. but when she came out i wanted to say something o her but i just i couldn't it was hurting me enough to say what i had to say inside i just i had to. when i looked at her i knew just from looking at her it hurt her the way she couldnt look at me and the way she was slowly starting to cey but to be honest it had to be said. if not me then somone had to.

when i was puching liam out i wasnttrying to hurt him i was just mad that he made her like him to when i wante just me and her no one else. i was just mad i coulldnt help it.

I gusses you could say i lost my anger eespecially after i saw her walk in here with Liam i cloudnt help but just lost it. It was like i couldnt breathe i still cant breathe it feels like i can only breathe when she was with me god i miss her. But i know she needs to figure out things out .
Evan if she dosnt no it yet.
I cant deal with this back fourth shit its not what i wont anymore.