Stuck

Truth Hurts

I wake up to my name getting callad i cant help but be annoyed by the person who is calling my name.

As i hear somone knocking at my door as i yell come in

the door swings open to reveal my brother and I cant help but say he looks unhappy

As i sit up as we sit on the endge of the bed

"Hey scott whats wrong?"

"Kar i just wanted to see how you are we haven't talked in awhile"

"I am ok i guse why do you ask"

"Well i heard that you went to a party yesterday and then i heard you come home crying "as he looks at me

"Oh yea i went to a party and oh i am fine know

"You sure tell me do i need to bet someone up"

I can't help but smilr at that.

My brother would honestly would bet someone up for me not caring who it is or what dont get me wrong i love it but sometimes its alittle to much.

I mean i love him to death its funny beacue when we were younger we wernt close but know since i live with him we have grown really close.

I really do love my brother but what has happend to me is just something i reather keep to myslef and forget .

And for nathan he is in the past.
I am onliy looking through the future.

If nathan wants to sleep around then he can i am done fighting for him if thats what he wants.

Scott pro

When i hard my sister come home crying last night i couldnt help but wanting to go and see if she is ok.

But i know my sister she just likes to be alone when she is crying but i couldn't help but want to go se her it pins me to know that someone ir something hurt her

When we moved he i reallt hoped that movieong here will be a fresh start but for some ressons its not turing out that way.

The resson we moved here and karstin dosent no it wasnt because wr needed a freash start it was beacue our parents wonted that houe just for work and there living there they didnt wont any distractions so they pretty much shipped us off so when we movied here i knew that they just wanted us out of the house and thats what they have been doing every time we move we move for them not for us it dosnt matter if were happy there'll just ship us to places who cares if we wont to go.

I wont to tell karstin but i dont how and i know if i do it will kill her to know that our parenrs just shipped us here to get us out of there hair. And shell no that i lied. Or they have been lying.

When i found out i was 10 and ever since then i have been saving money so that one day i can take my sister out of this sick family and take care of her. And let her be like a normal teenage one that stays in one place and makes friends beacue this life movieing sucks its not a life i wont for her.

What i have been telling her is that we move beacue we need a freash sart when trully we move because our parenrs wants us out of there hair there not on business meetings they are living at the old house.

What really hurts is that there not coming back she thinks they are when there not its really gonna to kill karstin and that is one thing that is killing me not telling her the truth i hate the feeling of liying to her everday.

And knowing she came home crying last night it will just add to the hurting and i dont wont that.

I love my sister but i hate the fact of me lieing to her everday anf knowing that she is hurting isnt helping my decision on telling her or not.