Stuck

"Broken Heart"

Chapter 18

I wake up to the sound of my phone going off i cant help but dread to pick it up evan if its importanat.

as i pick up my phone i see that i have 4  missed calls, one from hunter, 2 from liam, 1 from vanessa. 

as i roll my eyes at the missed call from Liam. For some reason i cant help but be alittle distanct with him its not that i dont wont to be friends with him i do but Nathan thinks i like Liam and i dont. and nathan isnt talking to me and its buging me.

i have questions  like why did hunter call me he never dose? hope this dosnt have to do with nathan.

the thing i love about hunter is after the hole frist date thing and nathan and me not talking he still talks to me and were awkward with each other were still friends and i love that i am happy for that. 

i should call him back to see whats up.
("Hey hunter you called everything okeay?")as i get off my bed and grab my new pair of jeans, and white crop top.

(" oh hey karstin and yea i did call i wanted to ask you something")  oh oh eveytime hunter says can i ask you something its always leads to bad news.

(" Ok shoot whats up ") as i start to do my make up well talking to hunter i just hope its good news not bad.

(" well i was wondering if you heard from natghan becsuse i havent heard from him since two days ago so i was just wondering") as he says this i fells like my breathing has just stoped itslike i cant breath. wait nathan is missing or better yet doing something bhe shouldnt be.

what i dont get how can hunter not here from nathan and there best friends i dont get it at all. what is happing here.

i cant help but over play what hunter just said about him not hearing anything from nathan for two days, but i also cant help over play the last time i talked to nathan  it was at the restaurant and his last words was him telling me to stop talking to him intill i chose witch guy i wont witch by the way i still have no clue what he meant by that, But still no i havent talked to him since that day at the restaurant but i seen him yesterday talking with these guys and he was being a total ass though but i have seen him but i wouldnt count that as talking nore seeing him.

but all tjis talk about him i have to say i miss him alot not just beacuse unter is know bring him up to me but i actually do miss him alot.

I miss his touch, I miss the way he looks at me it was like i was the only girl in the world for him, i was the one he was happy with, and omg i miss his eyes , i miss his lips his soft pulmp lips i miss the way his lips would fit perfectly with mine god i miss him,  i have to say that i honestly i crave for him i crave for his touch and i crave his lips i miss everthing about him i really do.

i know i must sound crazy but still when you really miss someone you just have to say it. and i know i must sound like a baby or some whinny girl  but i cant help it.  he just makes me crazy, what makes me more crazy is i never no what he is thinking about sometimes i wish i knew what he is thinking about well at least about me like if he actually likes me or am i just like other girls he has dated he just used me for sex ?

honestly apart of me would like to no but then the other half wouldnt i really wounldnt like to find out what gose on in a guys head.  evan if its Nathan.

i just hope he is alright it will kill me if he is not alright .

(" Oh no i havent talked yo him but i saw him since the day after my party sorry why do you ask whats wrong“）