Tear In My Heart (Donatello X OC)

C.27

I slept in my own bed, alone, but went to visit the next morning. Mom was already gone back home. I slipped down into the sewer and somehow found my way to the lair just to see Leo dabbing medicine on a black eye Mikey was forming while Raph stood by.

"What happened?" I rushed over.

"Donnie blew up a few minutes ago. Raph told us everything." Leo said, looking over at me and I frowned and bit my lip.

"Did Donnie do this?" I asked and they all nodded.

"Yep. Donnie... he has worse anger than Raph, actually. But instead of having a short temper, he lets it bottle up and then releases it all at once." Leo explained and I nodded.

"I'll go talk to him." I said to Mikey, turning to walk away, but Raph caught my arm.

"That's not a good idea." He said.

"I don't think Donnie would hurt me." I frowned.

"He normally wouldn't hurt Mikey, either." Raph pointed out, and I admitted to myself that he had a point.

"I'll be super careful. Promise." I gave them a last look before slipping into the lab.

"Donnie?" I asked really softly, walking slowly, and looking around for him. "Donnie, can I talk to you, please?" I asked and found him in a chair, sitting rather tense.

"I don't want to talk to you. Leave me alone." He growled, sounding more angry than I've ever heard him.

"Okay. You don't have to talk back, but hear me out, okay?" I hummed and took a moment to choose my words very carefully. My mom always said when confronting someone or explaining something to someone, you can never use the word 'should.'

"Donnie, we all have random thoughts about people and us in... alternative positions. I personally cannot help what thoughts enter my mind. Just because I think something for a minute or two doesn't mean I want it to happen, or even want to think about it, which was why that door was chained in the first place." I said and took a short breath.

"Donnie, I never, ever, want to hurt you like that. After all we've been through and done together, I'd never." I said and paused, swallowing my pride. "I love you, Donatello. I only want you." I said and wiped a tear that escaped, looking down at my feet.

"I wish I could believe you." I heard him say, and I looked up in disbelief and a dropped jaw.

"Donnie..."

"Don't you 'Donnie' me." He turned around and I saw nothing but anger. He stood up and walked towards me. "I trusted you so much and then that happens inside your head? Have you thought about fucking Raph? What about Leo? You probably have. I remember that kinky subconscious. She might as well be first in command since you're such a slut." He spat and I felt tears spilling into my eyes.

"So that's it? I spill my heart to you and you say that to me?" I asked, my voice cracking.

"Oh please. You only said it because you want me to forgive you." He rolled his eyes.

"No, Donnie! I really love you, I do!" I begged, and my head snapped violently to the side.

He fucking slapped me.

"Just shut up." He said and turned around. I turned away too and bolted out the lab.

"Hey, hey, whoa. What happened?" Leo caught me and tried to wipe tears pouring down my face and stinging my burning cheek.

"I hate him! I hate him so much!" Was all I could say. Leo hugged me and I cried into his plastron. He rubbed my back and I felt another hand join. Probably Raph.

"What did he do?" Raph asked and I looked up, showing him my glowing red cheek.

"What do you think?" I cried and he pulled me into a hug.

It was pretty quiet for a moment, then Donnie stepped out. "Shit. Dor, I'm so sorry..." He started and I pulled away from Raph to scream at him.

"You're only saying that because you want me to forgive you!" I spat the words back at him and he visibly flinched. "I will never forgive you!"

"Dorian..." He begged.

"Don't 'Dorian' me!" I screamed the words back at him. "You knew about what my dad did. You knew perfectly well! YOU KNOW THAT IS UNFORGIVABLE IN MY BOOK! YOU CAN'T COME BEGGING ME FOR FORGIVENESS WHEN YOU KNOW DAMN WELL I CAN'T EVEN FORGIVE MY OWN FATHER FOR IT. WHAT MAKES YOU ANY DIFFERENT?!" I screamed and Raph and Leo had to hold me back.

"PEOPLE DO NOT HIT PEOPLE THEY LOVE. IT'S WRONG. YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE, DONATELLO. NO EXCUSE. I HATE YOU, I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN, YOU MONSTER!" I screamed before breaking free and running out, back to the surface and to the comfort of my bed.