Tear In My Heart (Donatello X OC)

C.28

It's been nearly two weeks since that morning in the lair. I spent most of my time in bed, watching TV, reading books, or just staring at the wall, trying not to cry.

My life had just gone back to normal, before I met that damn mutant.

I have been keeping in touch with Leo, Raph, Mikey, and April though. They didn't text or call often, but maybe once every few days just to see how I was doing. Donnie tried texting and calling. I declined all of his calls and ignored the texts.

Garrett came around every two days, and I told him what happened with Donnie.

"And he hasn't hit you before then?" He asked and I nodded. "Then maybe he didn't really mean it. I mean, he looked so in love with you. I'm sure it's killing him to know that he hurt you." Garrett tried to reason.

"Good." Was all I replied.

"Do you still love him?" Garrett asked.

"Of course." I breathed.

"And you know he didn't mean it?" He asked.

"I know he didn't mean it. But he knows that my dad used to beat my mom, and years after he's died, I still can't forgive him for it. I can't forgive him that easily." I sighed.

So right now I was staring blankly at the TV screen, not paying attention, not even knowing what the fuck was happening. My head was just swimming with thoughts, making reality a blur.

I leaned back on the couch and leaned back, like Donnie had that one time. I closed my eyelids and let the colours and images swirl behind them. I heard a sad love song playing in the background and I focused on the lyrics.

"I still remember the look on your face
Lit through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered
For just us to know
You told me you loved me
So why did you go away?
Away

I do recall now the smell of the rain
Fresh on the pavement
I ran off the plane
That July 9th
The beat of your heart
It jumps through your shirt
I can still feel your arms

But now I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is
I don't know how to be something you miss
I never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips

I do remember the swing of your step
The life of the party,
you're showing off again
And I roll my eyes and then
You pull me in
I'm not much for dancing
But for you I did

Because I love your handshake,
meeting my father
I love how you walk
with your hands in your pockets
How you kissed me when I was
in the middle of saying something
There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions

And I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is
I don't know how to be something you miss
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips

So I'll watch your life in pictures
like I used to watch you sleep
And I feel you forget me
like I used to feel you breathe
And I keep up with our old friends
just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are

And I hope the sun shines
And it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you
You wish you had stayed
You can plan for a change in
weather and time
But I never planned on you
changing your mind

So I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is
I don't know how to be something you miss
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips

Just like our last kiss
Forever the name on my lips
Forever the name on my lips

Just like our last..."

I wiped tears from the corners of my eyes, sniffling a little at how the lyrics hit a little too close to home.

In the end, we're all just humans... drunk on the idea that love, only love, could heal our brokenness.