Forever and Always (Book 2)

Emotions

            My eyes fluttered open and it took me a moment to realize where I was. The last thing I remembered was escaping but being caught by Kyle and Dole. Currently, I was laying on the bed in the familiar bedroom. The window was boarded up with thick wood that was nailed into the wall. There was no way of escaping from that. The broken glass was cleaned up from the floor. The room was dark since the window was covered up.

           I swung my feet to the edge of the bed and a rush of pain filled my body. All that running plus the beating I hadn't recovered fully from yet was taking a toll on my body. I needed a full day to rest but I knew that wasn't going to happen. I didn't even remember being carried in here. I must have been really out of it.

             The spinning in my head finally subsided as I stood to my feet. I didn't want to face Kyle and would try to avoid it the best I could. I was only prolonging the inevitable but I didn't care. Kyle wouldn't forget my punishment and I feared what he had in mind. There was a faint knock on the door and I started to panic. I jumped back into bed and wrapped myself in the covers. My back was facing the door as I closed my eyes, pretending I was asleep. The door opened and then closed. There were faint footsteps and I tried my best to stay relaxed and not move. I waited a few seconds, wondering what the person was doing.

            "I know you're awake." A voice echoed in the room. It was Kyle's.

            I sighed and turned around to see Kyle standing by the edge of the bed holding a plate of food and a water bottle. He didn't seem angry which confused me. Wasn't he pissed that I had tried to escape?

          "I figured since you haven't eaten anything all day that you might be hungry." He said setting the plate and water down on the bed.

          "So you're not here for my punishment?" I said.

         I stared at the plate of food. It consisted of a ham and cheese sandwich, some grapes and potato chips. Kyle wasn't much of a cook so everything he gave me was simple meals. I glanced at the clock and it read almost four in the afternoon. I picked up the sandwich and took a big bite, my stomach thanking me for eating something.

           "Would you like me to punish you?" He asked.

           "No, I was just assuming that's why you would come in here." I said, looking away from him as I popped a grape in my mouth.

           There was a dip in the bed as Kyle sat down next to me, making my body tense. I folded my hands on my lap, already losing my appetite. I hated when people watched me eat, especially when they aren't eating with me. I didn't make eye contact with him as I stared down at my plate of food

          "Look, I don't want you to have to be afraid of me. I want us to be like how we were before a year ago. I miss that and deep down I know you miss it too." He said.

          "You must not know me very well then." I muttered, rolling my eyes.

          "Then look at me in the eyes and say that you don't miss the time before I kidnapped you." He said, grabbing my chin and forcing me to look at him.

           I wasn't sure what to say because there was a part of me that wished we could go back to the time where he was normal, where he didn't kidnap and murder people. We used to be so close and I did miss it. I wanted a normal life. I wanted him to be normal. Sadly, that would never happen. I didn't want to lie to him about this but I remembered that he murdered Ethan and my parents. Even if I did admit that I miss it, it could never be that way again.

           "I- I don't miss it." I said staring into his bright blue eyes that were almost identical to mine.

            "I don't believe you. I can see in your eyes that you are lying to me. Admit it." He said.