Dangerous Pursuit

Chapter 30

Jeremy

I am a little tipsy but definitely not drunk. But I what I can't deny is I am drowning from my sadness, emptiness and hurt inside.

I can't take anymore a shot. Not that I am drunk but I see no matter how much wine I drink, it can't relieve the pain inside. It can't heal. It can't make me forget the pain. It can't help me forget another feeling that start to nag inside me.

The noise in the bar is worsening my bad mood. I decided to step out to take some air.

I dialed my favorite number.

"Hello, Alex." I softly chuckle.

I love to call her Alex.

"Hmmm.." The drowsy voice from the other line made me smile, "What the hell again, Jeremy. I am in my good dreams." she complained.

"Well, I hope you are dreaming of me," I tease.

"Where are you? Shall I take you home again?" She's fully awake now and I guess she's starting to go to the bathroom to brush her teeth and freshen up.

"My God, Jeremy, until when are you like this?"

By this minute I know she's wearing her jeans and putting on her shirt and getting her car keys.

"I'm at the Nitro Bar. And by the way, thanks." I smiled and hung up.

I sat on the flower pot outside the bar while waiting for her. It has been our routine since we became close to each other. Alex has been there to rescue me. I only call her. Nobody else. But lately, my drinking spree and calling for her rescue became more often.

She has been the witness to my endless drinking spree and womanizing habits. She always nags and threatens not to mind me at all. But I know my Alex, she will always be there. Something I got used to.

The past years, I can't get over with Trisha. I put my mind to the missions, hoping I can still find and save her but it is hard to find and help someone who is not willing to be rescued.

Sometimes I just drown myself in alcohol to forget about Trisha, my parents and my fucked up life.

I give up. I can't find meaning in my life.

But I realize that lately that the one that keeps me holding on is Alex. She needs me. I am her partner and I don't want something bad will happen to her. I stayed with the organization because of her not anymore with my first purpose of finding and saving Trisha.

Alex car parks in front of me and I got in immediately.

She's quiet.

I think she got used to it already that no matter what she says I will go back to my old ways.

Even if I don't listen, she is always there for me.

When we reach my apartment, she looks at me and assess if I can go up alone. I smirk at her and I did not move. I can carry myself up but I just want her to help me go up. I want her to stay. Her presence gives me comfort.

"Fine, I get it." she went down and help me go down from her car.

I wrap my arms around her shoulders as she wraps her arms around my waist. I slightly leaned on her, smelling her vanilla mint perfume. I am enjoying every minute of it.

She opened my room and help me lie on my bed. She pulled off my shoes and went directly to the bathroom to get wet towel to freshen me up.

She silently pulled my shirt. She is looking at me and shaking her head in frustration.