Adopted by Lin Manuel Miranda

Chapter 21- Down

My eyes opened and I immediately felt pain. Not just physical pain, emotional pain that I wish would just go away. I just want this whole thing to go away and never have it happen. How could he do this? That is a question I've been asking myself since it happened. I knew the kid was kind of crazy but this is a new level.

I dragged myself up out of bed, even though I just wanted to stay in bed, and sort of got ready for the day. Even though I had taken 3 showers since the incident I still felt dirty. I took another shower to try and rid me of the feeling then got dressed. It really wasn't anything fancy at all, it was some yoga pants and a t-shirt. The cloths I was wearing I purposely put on so I didn't accidentally attract any men.

My body didn't want to move today. It just wanted to curl in on itself and never see anyone again but I had to force myself to do anything. The whole morning was a struggle with myself just to do simple things. Finally everything to do with personal hygiene was done and I went out to get breakfast. When I got out there I saw that Lin and Vanessa where waiting out there, feeding Sebastian as well. There were pancakes and bacon on a plate where I normally sit at the table. A spark of happiness went off when I saw it sitting there but it faded away quickly. The food that used to make me happy no longer had that effect.

I sat down at the table and looked at the food. There was no interest in eating it, I just played around with it and ate a bit to please Lin and Vanessa. Honestly why do I care what they think, they're just going to give me away after this. I'm just too much to take care of and I'm worthless. I can't even protect myself. Most of the meal was spent staring at my meal but whenever I looked up I saw Lin and Vanessa looking at me.

"We want to talk to you," Vanessa told me.

"Sure. Can I just finish these?" I asked in response.

"Of course," Lin replied.

I spent more time playing around with the pancakes and eating little bits. After a while I knew it was time to stop staling and just talk. I tried to pawn off the rest of my food but no one wanted it so I gave a little bit to the dog and the rest in the trash. Wasteful I know. After I finished with cleaning off my plate Lin and Vanessa were sitting on the couch waiting for me. I sat across from them on the piano bench and looked at them, waiting for them to talk.

"Well we have a few things to talk about. First we have some good news, then we need you to tell us what happened. You can't keep all of this bottled up. If you tell us it will make you feel better and I can find someone to defend you in court. Which brings up the last thing we need to talk about, we are going to take this course but we need you to be ok with that if not then we won't do it," Vanessa said in one breath.

"Ok well, I'll go along with you taking this to court. I don't know if I'm ready to talk about it with you guys. And what good news? You know I'm sorry I've been such a hassle I can be out of your hair. Just send me to a new foster home I'm ok with it," I sighed.

"We would never send you to a new foster home! In fact our good news is we're going to be able to adopt you by Christmas. You will be a Miranda, or Nadal, before Christmas time!" Lin said enthusiastically.

"Oh wow. That's cool. Are you sure? I mean I can be a hand full," I asked.

"Of course! You are like a daughter to us and soon you will be. We want to be able to help you with anything the world throws at you. Soon you won't be a lone wolf anymore, you'll be a part of our family, or pack for my analogy," Lin chuckled to himself about his ending.

"Ok well then that is good news. I can't wait to be a part of this family," I tried to say and genuinely as possible.

Yes I am actually excited to be a part of this family but as of yesterday I've found it hard to be really happy about anything. They kept looking at me expectantly. I knew what they wanted. They wanted me to tell them what happened. I've only talked about it aloud once and that was to a cop. I'm not ready to recall the horrible events to my soon to be parents. I mean I can't even say it aloud to myself.

"Listen I do really like you guys but I'm not in a place right now where I can talk about it. I'll talk about it in court and you guys can hear for yourselves. What happened to me isn't something I would like to recall right now. So I'm sorry but I just can't tell you guys about right now," I explained.

"It's ok. We understand. Please take you time. We really don't want to rush you," Vanessa said cooly.

"Thank you for understanding and is that all you wanted to talk about?," I asked

"Yup," Lin replied.

As soon as Lin said that I gave them a small half smile and left to go back to my room. Talking was hard when all you want to do is curl up and die. You know what, maybe this world would be better without me in it. Maybe I should just end it all. I'm sure no one would feel to bad. Lin and Vanessa wouldn't have to worry about me anymore. All of those thoughts floated around in my head as I fell asleep.

Hello! Ok first off I'm so so so sorry about not posting yesterday. I've just started a job and it's pretty hectic. I've got a bunch of 8 hour shifts so updating will be hard but I promise I'll do it everyday. And second of all how did you like the chapter! I hope y'all are enjoying the story, well as much as you can considering the heart break. But don't you fear I have very good plans that will maybe cause Anne some happiness. Anywho bye! XOXO