Stare

The Prophecy

I slid my back down the wall and let time fly by me. I couldn't just pretend like nothing happened, even though me and him had our fights its hard to see him go. My Mom didn't say one word for a full two weeks, I never felt so alone during that time. I took care of myself and Jackson. He would always ask why Mom wasn't talking or why Dads not home. I tried to make him not say those things in front of Mom. Just like every four year old he treated it like a joke. But I physically couldn't do anything, just watch it all pass by me and have to deal with it. But at the very second the silence for over 2 weeks was broken.

"I'm doing it." As soon as she said those words her head fell into her hands. I knew what she was talking about. The doctors were recommending it to us but needed our approval. "This is crazy, he's been in a coma for over two weeks." She shook her head. Her red swollen depressed eyes looked directly to me. They seemed to look deeper then my soul. Something much farther then that. "Its time." She looked at the ceiling, but she had no more tears left. I agreed politely.

The drive to the hospital was depressing knowing that I would come back to the house with one less person in my our lives. I just thought of the feeling I got when he first entered my life. Unsure, and unhappy, but he began to grow on me. It all just made me think of my real father. The devil. I haven't talked to him for a while. Maybe I would summon him tonight. I watched the trees fly by me in the car and the clouds watch over me like a guardian. I tried to keep my mind off things as much as I could, but as soon as we got to the hospital I could only think about him. My Moms conversation with the doctor was short and too the point. The doctor just agreed to it and got to it. My mom spent a good forty-five minutes in the room with him. I waited outside hearing the familiar sobs. You see a lot in a hospital and its just a place full of death. On the other hand theres also a lot of life giving in hospitals. Each stage of life gave the hospital its neutral atmosphere to it. But the main aspect that made up the atmosphere of the hospital was fear. Fear from the patients, fear of the friends or family of the patient, and even fear from the surgeons. My Mom opened the door to let me in the room before they would un-hook my Dad from all the equipment. I knelt next to his bed. I wanted to say something to him, but it was personal so I said it in my head.

George, even though I've only known you for a short time now you seem like the type of person who I would want in my life longer then you actually stayed for. And I know you weren't my real Dad but.... you acted like it and you were basically the Dad I never got to know or I never had. You were there for me when I needed you but why did you have to leave me when I needed you the most? Huh? And I never got to actually tell you how much I actually loved you or appreciated you and I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry for what I said to you the other day and I hope you know that Ill never forget you. See you on the other side hopefully.....

I stood back up again. I felt a lot better. My Mom embraced me as the doctor walked in.

"Have you had a chance to say your goodbyes?" She seemed careless and the type of person who had no respect for human life. I hated these people.

"Yes, we have." My Mom sniffed. The lady sighed. She walked over to the machine and just gave everything a yank. She sighed.

"I'm sorry for you loss." She chewed her gun loudly then walked out. I wanted to do something so bad to her but I couldn't not around my Mom. The lady's carelessness made my Mom even more upset. She cried into my shoulder and I stood there still trying to comprehend it all. My brain couldn't take it all in. It was too much. Staying in the room would only hold us back from moving on with our lives. For some reason I watched as the doors closed behind me when I left the room, almost like the door closing to a memory that will soon be forgotten with time. I was happy that we finally got to leave this dreaded place. But then I saw the lady doctor and had some business I had to take care of.