Loving A Beast

Chapter 29

Chapter 29

Hunter's POV

Slumping against the worn, lumpy cot that felt worse than the floor I stated up at the small lightbulb that was my only light in this dark hole. The darkness was both a blessing and a curse; for one it made a great cover up from the guards when they brought in my meals- the guards no matter how strong they still tried sneaking a peek at the monster in the cage but it brought a heavy loneliness that hasn't left me since I woke up in this hell hole.

The cold feeling swallowed me whole with only my thoughts and regrets repeating in my mind like a bad movie over and over again. With no distraction I was forced to watch the memory of Aubrey's terrified expression and her ear piercing scream that had been like a banshee's cry as it haunted my days and nights of what I almost did. It was worse to when I slept; the haunting memory of my family's bodies sprawled out around me as I sat on the cold ground with Aubrey's limp, blood smeared body on my lap. Her blood dripped down my chin as I stared at her lifeless body, her soft hazel eyes frozen with fear that would forever me burned into my mind.

A reminder that I am a beast.

Allowing my lids to close I ignored the constant burning in my belly for food, it's been days since the last time I eat and even than it was only a stale loaf of bread and all the blood I lost yesterday didn't help either. My body felt heavy as I shifted to my side and further into the dark as my thoughts drifted back to Aubrey.

Her gold like hair tied neatly back into a ponytail, her skin seemed a bit grey or was that just my eyes from being coped up in the dark for so long. She has lose weight that I know for sure from holding her arm, it was so frail. Her eyes were circled with a light grey from what I assume is a lack of sleep and her bright hazel eyes were the dullest I've ever seen them; as if they was no life in them.

All in all Aubrey looked beautiful and the sight of her had me springing onto my feet in no time thinking I had drifted off again. Pushing aside the happiness that I felt when she said she was real I nearly dropped onto my knees but that would give her hope. Hope in me. Hope that I'll still be alive after tomorrow.

'Mate' my wolf growled for the tenth time this morning

Ignoring the mutt I pictured my sweet Aubrey crying after they have killed me. How long would she grieve me? How long will it take her to move on? Will she move on?

Part of me wanted her to but the other part- the selfish part of me wished she doesn't and for that I hated myself more. Aubrey deserves to feel loved by another, to be cherished and brighten another lucky man's life the way she has brightened mine. I don't deserve her.

My heart twisted at the thought of losing her but it's for the best I kept telling myself. No good would come out of me staying in her life and that was why I pleaded guilty. To save her of the false hope, of the heartache she would faces by me being apart of her life.

I did it for her.

A small touched my lips as I recalled how she had argued with me when I bit her. She didn't flinch away or run the other way screaming-no she stood there with blood trailing down her arm still trying to convince me I wasn't a monster. She was suppose to run away wide eyed, to scream that I'm a monster.

That was the point of me biting her but my Aubrey didn't back down and for that I love her more.

The steel door being opened snapped me from my thoughts as my eyes reopened.

"..Jerry don't." I heard Matt hiss

Standing up I walked towards the bars to see Aubrey's father storming my way his fists balled at his sides, his nostrils flaring and his eyes narrowed at me. Dropping my arms to my side I waited for him to reach me and release his anger on me for what I did to Aubrey. I deserved it.