Scott, my alpha (scomiche) AU

Chapter 28: Insecure

Slight smut warning

Scott's POV

I look at Mitch's beautiful features. He is without a doubt the most beautiful person I've ever seen. How did I get so lucky?

The full moon is not this night, but the night after. So I basically have a night and a day before that. I can feel it. My wolf desperately wants to come out and just ravish Mitch already. I don't know if I can hold him back when the time is finally there.

My wolf is an alpha male, he just wants to show off Mitch. Show everyone that he is ours. He doesn't want to admit it but he also wants to be Mitch's.

I can't help to be nervous though. What if I hurt Mitch? What if I can't control my wolf and do something Mitch doesn't want to?

I decide to just do some pack business, like finances, and talk to Kevin about treaties and all the boring pack stuff. Hopefully this works as a distraction. I love being an alpha but this is the downside. There is more paperwork than you would have expected.

What if Mitch doesn't want to? My mind keeps wandering to other places. I have been selfishly only thinking about me, but maybe Mitch wants to wait.

I just dive in my paperwork again. I missed a bit and have to catch up.

"Kevin?" Kevin is in the room with me, doing his own paperwork.

"Yeah?" He looks up from the papers he was signing.  Only now I see the bags under his eyes. I probably was not the only one who had a rough day.

"How did your first mating with Alyssa go?" His eyes widen.

"I don't want a full description of your sex life." I quickly clarify. "It's just that the full moon is coming up and I'm nervous."

He smiles a bit at me. "It was not how I expected. I expected it to be perfect like in the movies and the books. But we both didn't know what we were doing. It was sweaty and hot since it was literally 90 degrees that day." Kevin chuckles. "But in the end, we love each other so it didn't have to be perfect." Kevin stares dreamily ahead, probably thinking of his mate Alyssa. "And then the marking. That was one of the best experiences in my life. Not just the moment you bite each other is very pleasurable, but also after that. You can feel each other's emotions. You feel connected. It's one of the best feelings in the world. Especially if it is with your one true mate." His eyes focus back on mine.

"It's just that I don't want to hurt him." I heard that with straight sex the it isn't very pleasant for the girl in the beginning. So Kevin must have thought the same.

"For the girl, or in your case bottom, it's going to hurt the first time. That's inevitable. You just have to be careful and make it pleasurable for them too." Kevin says.

"But how do I do that?" I hope Mitch will tell me if he is uncomfortable or in pain. But after the experience today with the meds, I'm not so sure of that anymore.

"Scott I'm not going to explain to you how to have gay sex, but I heard that prepping is very important. Lube can also come in handy." Okay, that is helpful. I'll remember that.

I'm still not sure though. What if I'm very bad at it? What if Mitch won't like it? I think I will.

Kevin must have seen my unsure face, "Look Scott, I think you're going to be fine. Most wolves complete the mating the second or sometimes first day they've met. Me and Alyssa too. You and Mitch have met more than a week ago and have been through a lot already. Your bond is strong. I think you will be more than okay." Kevin reassures me.

I smile at him gratefully, "Thank you, Kev. You always know what to say."

He hugs me, "I try." He says while grinning.

I pull away and walk upstairs to my room. I'm exhausted, all I want to do is sleep with Mitch in my arms.

I take a quick shower and brush my teeth. It's around midnight when I finally step in my bed. I immediately take Mitch in my arms. He unconsciously curls further in me.

The next morning when I wake up I can immediately feel that this is the day before the full moon. My wolf is on edge and begging me to shift. I can't though. I'm not sure if I can hold him back if I shift.

I also wake up with morning wood. Luckily, Mitch is still asleep so he won't be bothered by it. That boy sleeps a lot. 

I go into the bathroom and take care of myself in the shower. I think of Mitch's beautiful body and me inside that gorgeous body. That finishes me off quickly.

I'm way too horny on this early morning. I can't imagine what it will be like when the full moon really comes out. 

I hear whimpering coming out of the bedroom.

I quickly walk to the door and in the bedroom, afraid that something is wrong with Mitch.

Mitch is sitting in the bed, his hand on his lap and his eyes closed. He is only wearing boxers so I can see what is going on.

He also has a boner and is palming himself through his boxers. That sight alone is enough to make me hard again.

I walk closer to him and sit next to him on the bed. I dip my hand in his underwear grabbing his length. He lets out a surprised gasp. I start pumping him till he is a hot, panting mess. It does not take long to finish him off.

"Thank you." He pants, his head falling on my shoulder. I kiss him on the head.

"Baby, it's the full moon tonight so you're going to be horny all day, and especially all night." I don't think he knows this already. Maybe I should have told him sooner.

He looks up at me, muttering an "Oh." He cheeks are a cute rosy pink.

"Yeah, I wanted to talk to you about tonight. I don't want to pressure you into anything, but my wolf is already begging me to just take you right here and tonight that is going to be worse." Mitch's eyes widen. His cheeks blushing even more. "So I thought, maybe tonight we can finish the mating?" I sounds like a question, which it is because I don't want to do it if he doesn't.

"I honestly think I'm ready Scott. I know you will take good care of me and won't hurt me. Are you ready though?" Mitch asks me.

He is such a sweetheart. "I think I am. We'll take it slow and if one of us is not comfortable we'll just stop." I say.

He nods at me and then jumps up to go to the bathroom, leaving me with a half hard erection. How am I going to survive this day before I can finally ease this hunger in me?

Sooo, I think you all know what the next chapter is going to be.