Dirty Little Secret

Chapter 12

The kiss stunned me but for some reason I don't pull away. I finally come to my senses and stop. He looks at me and smiles, and I'm not quite sure what to do. I am so confused as to why he kissed me. He has a girlfriend.

I give him a confused and awkward look and his face starts to flush. I can tell he's embarrassed.

"Well...see ya in chemistry!" I say and start to walk swiftly away, but eventually it turned into a sprint. I ran to my car and drove off as quickly as possible. I had to tell Maddie about this. Should I tell Maddie about this? Yes, I should, I need to get it out so I doesn't burst out in front of Harry.

Harry.

Should I tell him? No..If I do, everything will get worse. But what if he finds out from someone else? Then he'll never trust me again. I have to tell him. Without thinking, I change my course to go to Harry's house.

I arrive in his driveway, but I stay sitting in the car. My mind is swimming with thoughts and feelings and I don't know if I'll be able to tell him. Maybe I do like Liam? No, that's ridiculous. 'Kat he has a girlfriend' keeps replaying in my head.

I walk up to his front door and give it a knock. He took a little while to answer, but when he did, his smiled faded and his face turned red. He stepped outside and closed the door really quickly. Is he mad that I'm here?

"Kat, what are you doing here?" He says in a stern whisper.

"I need to talk to you, I-"

"You can't just come to my house without saying anything!" He's starting to get mad.

"You come to mine all the time?"

"But that's different.."

"How is that any different? If you don't want your roommates to see you talking to me, you could've just said it." I try to swallow the lump in my throat starting to form. Don't cry, Kat, you're stronger than that.

"Hey Harry, who's there? Bring em inside!" One of his roommates screamed from the door. He was a little clumsy and you could tell from his voice he's a little drunk.

"Go back in the house, I'll be there in a minute." Harry says with a stern tone.

"Is that your girlfriend? She's pretty. Hi Harry's girlfriend!" I manage to get in a wave before Harry rushes to the door to push his friend in.

"Kat, I think you should go."

I didn't say anything, I just walked to my car and drove away. I knew I shouldn't have come. Thoughts of Liam kissing me swarm my brain. Maybe dating Liam wouldn't be a bad thing? He's really nice to me, and he's pretty cute, too. Ugh, I hate boys.

By the time I got to my dorm, the water works already started and there's no way to turn them off. I don't even know why I'm crying this much. I was glad Maddie wasn't in the dorm because I don't want her to see me cry, but I do wish I had someone to talk to. I should call my mom. I haven't talked to her since she dropped me off a month ago.

One month. It's been that long since I last talked to my mom. I quickly grab my cell phone and dial her number.

"Hello?"

"Hi mom."

"Kat! Hi, how are you? I haven't talked to you for awhile. How's school going? Made any new friends? Boyfriends?" My mom was a younger mom, she had me at 17, so she was into all the gossip no matter what. Sometimes I feel like she's disappointed in me. We're the complete opposite. She was crazy popular in school. Head cheerleader, got the hottest guys, nice body. She was perfect. Then there's me. Loser who makes boys embarrassed to me around me.