All We Are

Twenty Nine

*****

"What have you done to me?" He said. What have you done to me? I wanna get over you somehow, won't you get forward? I'll never forget what we had that night, and you were holding both my hands, and you said, "You know, it's just like a funeral, to say goodbye again, for one last time"... All my light turned to darkness."- Like A Funeral, by Erik Jonasson

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Rose

"NO!" I let out a blood-curdling scream. "NO! NO! NO!" I said frantically.  "Blake I love you!" I cried in desperation. "I love you, Blake! Don't be dead! Blake!"

I screamed out everything that I had in me. My voice pierced the air, and it was so brutal, so painful, and so deafening. Nothing could describe how I felt, just screaming the word "no."  And to see him lying there felt like my heart and soul were being ripped apart, and thrown into a void of despair.

I stared down at Blake. He was motionless, cold, unmoving, in my arms. I was bent over him, sitting on the ground. The pain was excruciating, just looking at him, holding him. Hot tears streamed down my face continuously, and they wouldn't stop.

In all the commotion, all I could do was hold Blake and cry. I could hear the M.E.s, and policemen rushing to the scene now, there were probably paramedics coming for me and James.

Now, around us policemen were shouting. They were still after Ryan.

Hunter never once left my side. He sat there, and I caught steady tears streaming down his cheeks every so often.

Now the paramedics rushed in to James, who was still out cold on the ground. Carter and Cal were outside the warehouse, and Hunter and I were still there, me holding onto Blake with everything I had, and never letting go.

"Rose," I heard Hunter say through my clouded mind. "Rose, they need to take his body, you need to let go."

I shook my head. I refused to let him go.

"Rose." Hunter said, this time placing a hand on my shoulder. "They have to."

"No." I replied.

"Ma'am, we need to remove the body now." The M.E. said. "We have to take the body."

All I could think in that moment was how I wasn't going to let him go. I was going to hold onto Blake, and never let go.

"Miss." A paramedic said to me. "Let them take the body, so we can check your injuries.

I just kept shaking my head and saying no.

"Rose!" Hunter said loudly. "You have to let go."

I couldn't.

Then Hunter came up to me and tried to pry me from Blake's body. He was lifting me away from Blake, and I fought like hell to hold on. The M.E. rushed up and tried to grab Blake from me, but I wouldn't loosen my grip.

"NO LET ME STAY WITH HIM!" I screamed. "LET GO OF ME! I HAVE TO STAY WITH HIM! NO! NO!"

I screamed bloody murder. I thrashed in Hunter's arms. I tried fighting the paramedics who were only trying to help me. I just kept fighting now, even though my whole body was exhausted.

"Shh... Rose... Shh..." Hunter said, rubbing my back no matter how hard I fought.

"We need to control her, she'll only end up hurting herself more." One of the paramedics shouted over me.