I'm Here For You 《Ambrollins》

Real Talk {12}

'Look, when I looked at her, I felt nothing, a few weeks ago, I felt that her warm smile made me smile too, when she cried, I cried too.
When she was sad, I was sad.
When she looked at me, I felt love. But that went away.' Dean said to Seth, who was very interested in what he heard.
Seth moved an arm around Dean and hugged him from the side.
He sipped a bit of his hot chocolate.
'That was love, I'm sure, but I don't feel it with her anymore.' Dean said.

'I only felt this at the beginning of mine and Leighla's relationship. But after a while I just wanted to believe that it's still there, but it wasn't.
I felt nothing like this anymore with her.
And then, you know what then happened. With Zahra and everything.' Seth said.

'But I never felt this way with Zahra.
I thought the feelings just have to grow, and that time will help, but time didn't help.' He added.
'The right one is waiting for you, I'm sure.' Dean said.

Then Dean's phone went off, he looked who it was.

Roman: Dude, 20 minutes, the bar next to your house.

'He thinks I'm at my old house.' Dean whispered.
'Who? Roman? Didn't you tell him?' Seth asked.
'No I didnt, and yeah it is Roman, he just texted me, to come over to the bar.' Dean said and showed Seth the message.
Seth pulled the phone out of Dean's hand, and dialed a number and called it.
Dean wanted to take his phone back but he couldn't, Seth was faster.

'Roman? Yeah it's me, the scumbag, I want to tell you, that Dean is at my house, obviously.' Then he made a break, probably while Roman was speaking.

'Oh, you think I'll hurt him again, let's see, I am not the one who is mad at him because he cares for his little brother, and tries to help him feel better because he's all alone.
And I think, I'm also not the one who broke up with him, because of the same reasons.' Another break.
'No, no, no, no, no. Listen Roman, I know, I don't deserve him, but he is also happy, he always laughs when I'm laughing, he's always happy when I'm happy, he always cries when I'm crying..' Seth stopped, the last word he said, were quiet, he didn't finish the sentence, he just hung up.

He gave Dean his phone back, and stood up, he limped to his bedroom, he said nothing. Dean didn't follow, he didn't know what was with Seth, he wanted to think before he goes to the bedroom to talk to Seth.

Seth sat down on his bed, he was confused.
'He always laughed when she laughed, he always cried when she cried.
He said that was the time where he felt true love for her.
I always cried when Leighla cried, I always laughed when she laughed, that was when I truly loved her..' Seth said to himself.

'What is now? He's sad when I'm sad, he's crying when I'm crying, he's happy when I am, he is laughing when I'm laughing, he's smiling when I'm smiling.' Seth said.
'Does.. does he have feelings for me?.. Seth, no, he, he was your man crush, he is. But he is straight, and you too, are you?' Seth asked himself.

Meanwhile in the living room

'What the fuck is with him?' Dean asked himself.
'Wait, the last words he said were, 'he cries when I crie, he laughs when I laugh.'. That was true, wait..' Dean thought.
'Does he think I have feelings for him, I said that I did the same things when I was in love with Renee.
That's true, I do the same things with him, that I did with Renee when I loved her..
And I always cuddle with him in bed, I didn't, don't, mind when he wrapped, wraps an arm around me. I stroke over his chest, to calm him down, and I liked it, I felt this special feeling, this sparkling, do.. do I love him?'

Dean was confused, he stood up and went into the bedroom, where Seth sat on the bed, crying.
'Why did you went away, and, why are you crying?' Dean asked with tears in his eyes.

'I.. I think you feel something for me.' Seth mumbled, Dean didn't clearly understand.
'Baby, you have to talk louder.' Dean said gently.
Seth looked a bit shocked up to Dean, probably because of the way he just called him.
But, Seth liked that, he liked to be called baby, of course, from Dean.

'I think you have feelings for me.' Seth mumbled clearer this time.
'Seth, do you have feelings for me?' Dean asked serious, not gently, not lovely, cold.
'I.. I think yes.' Seth answered.
'No.' Dean just said. Dean had feelings for Seth, yes. But Dean didn't deserve Seth.
Dean was crap, Seth was perfect, Dean had nothing at the moment.
Renee had the same opinion, why should somebody love someone like him, someone who lived on the streets, someone who has done drugs.
'Yes, Dean, I have feelings for you, you can't just say no. And you feel the same way.' Seth said.
'Yes I do, but, we won't date, that's not good for you.'
'What do you mean, with, that's not good for me? It's not good for me, when I'm with someone who makes me happy?' Seth asked confused, and sad, he had tears in his eyes, but he tried to fight them back.
'I'm always here for you. But I'm not the right one for you like this way.' Dean said. And left the room.

AN// There's the drama.
Do you think that Dean is right and that Dean doesn't deserve Seth?