I'm Here For You 《Ambrollins》

Looking for him {13}

The next day

Seth was sad, and hurt, and alone, since Dean left into a hotel.
He had feelings for Dean, not just brotherly ones, and Dean shared this feelings, why shouldn't Dean be good for him?
'Why did he say he's not good for me?' Seth asked himself.
Dean is a wonderful human being, he's handsome, he has a great character.
His dimples, god Seth loved them. His ice blue eyes. Everything this man had was perfect.

Seth thought about the last days, then something came into his mind, Renee.
Renee's letter, she wrote that Dean is an awful person, and that she thinks that nobody loved him, she said why would somebody love someone who lived on the streets, who drunk, and who did drugs. Yeah, Dean has done those things, but that's a long time ago.
He was a better person now, and he deserved to be loved, and Seth did this.

Seth loved Dean.

It was strange to say that, they were brothers, best friends, and actually, nothing more.
But that changed, yeah, they became enemies, but now? They started to love each other.
And nothing, nothing, should stop that.

Seth stood up and limped to his car, tough, he shouldn't drive, but physically pain was nothing, compared to the pain he was feeling right now.
Seth took seat, but then he realized that he didn't know where Dean was.
They were like 10 hotels in this area, and he could be in anyone.
But that didn't matter, he will ask in every hotel.

He arrived at the first one, which was the nearest.
'Hello, I want to know if Mister Dean Ambrose is here.' Seth said and the woman looked into her computer.
'No, I'm sorry. Mister Ambrose has no room in our hotel. Do you want that I call the hotels near this one, and ask if he's there?' The women asked.
'You can do that? That would be great.' Seth said, and the woman nodded.
She took the phone and made a few calls.
After every call Seth lost a bit hope
'Okay, anyway, thank you.' She said to her last call.
'I'm sorry, Mister Ambrose isn't here in davenport in any hotel.' The woman said.
Where is he? He isn't on the streets, is he?
Even if davenport is a nice town, bad things happen everywhere.
'Okay, thank you, bye.' Seth said and left.

Seth got into his car and started crying.
Dean left, maybe forever.
No, Seth can't just give up.
He wasn't proud of this fact, since he hated him, but John was right,
Never Give Up.
Seth pulled out his phone and called Renee.
She was the one who made Dean feel like this.

Seth: Do you fucking know what you did?
Renee: Hello, Seth, no, what have I done?
Seth: Dean ran away because of what you said about him. That he doesn't deserve to be loved and that he's crap.
Renee: Ohh, I'm sorry,.. wait, actually I'm not. That's what he deserves, nothing.
Seth: You loved him, and now you talk about him like he is crap. You are an awful woman!
Renee: I loved him, you say it, loved, but it looks like I'm not the only one, Seth..He's an awful man, and if I'm right, you too.

She hung up.
No, that was not what Dean deserved. He deserved to be happy, with the one who he loved, and the one he loved.
That was Seth, Seth loved Dean, and Dean loved Seth.

Seth wiped his tears away, and started the car. He just drove to every location, he knew, that Dean knew.
He went to McDonalds, Starbucks, everywhere. But he didn't find Dean.
Seth even called his mom, if she saw him, but she didn't.

'Where are you?' Seth whispered to himself. Seth drove around the whole city, he even searched in Buffalo and other cities near davenport.
But Dean was nowhere.

It was getting dark outside and Seth's knee hurt really bad. He drove back to his house, but just to take some painkillers, then he started looking for Dean again.

'I love you! And you love me!.. the whole drama because of what this whore said.' Seth said crying.

'I can't fucking lose you..' was the sentence Seth said the whole time, again and again and again, while the rain dropped on the car's window.

AN// Will the next time Seth sees Dean, will be at work, which would be just in 7 month?