I'm Here For You 《Ambrollins》

Florida {41}

Dean was up at 8 am, he packed his stuff and headed to his car. It will take him a few hours till he arrives in Florida.
He wasn't tired he was really anxious, Seth probably won't want to talk with him. But Dean had to try it, Seth was the love of his life.

Seth woke up a few hours later, he had no clue about everything, he just took on his sport clothes and drove to the performance center to train. As he arrived he looked around he knew where everything was, but he was fascinated as he saw the young talent working on their skills with so much passion like he had when he was first here.
Then he suddenly bumbed into someone, he was really embarrassed as he landed on the other man.
'I'm sorry, I-I wasn't focused on where I walked to and.. sorry.' Seth said, he didn't look into the other man's face and rubbed the back of his neck as he rolled away from the man.
'No problem darlin'.' The man said and Seth was shocked as he looked up. It was Dean, he knew it as he heard that voice, it was the same voice he heard a few years ago, and it was the same voice he heard just weeks ago saying that he loves Seth.
'Seth, I need you. I miss you so much. I can't just accept that we two act like we're strangers, we love each other.' Dean said and was about to stroke over Seth's cheek but Seth moved away before he could.
Seth stood up and ran away. Dean stood up too and looked how Seth ran away.
That was it, Seth didn't want Dean in his life anymore.

Dean waited a bit and thought about what he should do next, he can't just go away. He walked to the bathroom where Seth ran into. He slowly opened the door, he saw nobody, he looked if any of the toilets were locked but no one was. Then he heard quiet sobs. He walked into the showers and Seth sat in the edge of one of them, crying.
Dean didn't know, but he just walked over to Seth and sat next to him. He moved his arm around his shoulders.Seth wanted to move away but he relaxed into the touch.
'Seth if you forgive me you won't have to cry.' Dean said.
'Dean, you know exactly that I'm scared of this side. But I know you have this side and I can live with it. But you broke your promise, and not even that, you didn't even hear me, you didn't hear how I screamed and cried.' Seth said looking at the ground in front of him.
'You're worried if I could break my promise again right? Nah, you don't have to answer. Seth if I could do anything I would do it. If I have to choose between you and living I would chose you and the last thing I would say, would be that I love you. And if you don't forgive me I'll never forgive myself.'
'I-I can't.' Seth mumbled.
Dean slowly nodded, there was no chance in hell to get him back. Dean stood up and walked out of the showers.

The moment Seth heard that the door was closed was the moment he started to cry again. Seth didn't know why he did that. Why did he have to say that, he loved Dean. So why?
Seth was angry on himself now, but, he didn't know.

Dean walked out, some people tried to talk with him but he didn't answer, he didn't want that the others saw how he cried.
He tried to fight the tears back but when he got into his car he cried. He cried so much, he will never hear how Seth says 'I love you' to him again, and he will never feel touches coming from Seth and he didn't mean the fucks, even if they were awesome, but Dean could abdicate fucks with Seth if he could instead love him and share the rest of his life with him.
Dean has to accept that, he has to accept Seth's decision. As he calmed down a bit he started the car and drove back to where the tour was, anywhere a few hours away.
But who the fuck cares how long he drives or where he drives to.

AN// Okay,  this book has 2k + reads and I'm so thankful for that.
So a little time to get to know me XD probably not interesting but for the ones who are, here you go.

My name is Celina, I'm still in school (sadly, but oh well..) I was born and live in Germany (not a good place to be a wrestling fan as a girl).
I'm not some of these usual girls I'm different, I watch wrestling and I love it, I also love playing video games which isn't usual as a girl, in Germany.
When I'm older I want to become a Wrestler.  And no, it's not just that I'm one of those who thinks who knows everything only from watching it.
I work every single day on it and I don't only improve my physically skills, I do everything, writing promos, drawing my ring gear and so on.
Back to normal stuff, I'm kinda a nerd but actually I don't even learn, I usually wear dark colors but my mom says I have to wear normal clothes, so I also wear normal stuff.

So if you read till hear you know me now a bit more XD