I'm Here For You 《Ambrollins》

Fixing some things {42}

As Dean arrived at the hotel where the other superstars were he went to the reception and asked where Roman's room was. The man gave him the directions which Dean then followed. Before he knocked on the door he wiped his tears away.
'Where's Seth?' Roman asked as he opened the door and Dean slowly shook his head. Roman sighed and pulled Dean in his arms.
'Are we two okay again?' Roman asked.
Dean just nodded as Roman pulled him into the room.

'Shoot.' Roman said rubbing Dean's shoulder after they sat down on the couch.
'I surprised him at the center, well it was so, he walked around and didn't really look where he walked to and then I placed myself in his way so that he bumped into me. And as he said sorry I said the same words as a few years ago. No problem darlin'. Then he ran into the bathroom, I followed, I sat down next to him in the edge of the showers and then we talked. I asked him if he can forgive me, and he said he can't. Roman now it's is finally over. I fought and I lost. I lost the love of my life. He knew everything about me and he still liked me, and I was so stupid and let him go.' Dean explained stuttering.
'You didn't, er.. To be honest I don't know what to say to not make you feel worse.' Roman said.
'You can say it. I'm an idiot. I'm worse than an idiot.' Dean sighed.
'I can't anymore. Stop beeing so depressed. He's not the first love you lost!' Roman shouted.
He looked at Dean.
'Sorry, I didn't mean it like that.' Roman apologized.
Dean was silent for a while, he stared at the ground fighting the tears back.
'He's not a love. He's the love, the love of my life.' Dean mumbled but Roman understood him.
'It's like someone ripped my heart out of my chest, smashed it on the floor, kicked on it and then this person put it back into my chest, so that I can feel the pain.' Dean said almost whispering.
Roman was shocked, he never heard words like these coming out of Dean's mouth. He expected those words from Seth when he shows his emo side, but not from Dean, Dean was never like this.

'What about we share the room, you can sleep in the bed and I sleep on the couch. It doesn't matter what you say, this will happen even if I have to lock the bedroom door.' Roman said.
Dean sighed, he knew that Roman would do that, so he just went in the bedroom.

Roman waited an hour and then he called Seth.

Roman: Seth why didn't you just say that you forgive him? I know that you still love him.
Seth: Roman, I could say that I forgive him, but that would be a lie and I can't lie to him, I'm not ready to forgive him.
Roman: You can't say he has to wait. Either you want him now or never.
Seth: You can't just make me choose.
Roman: Dean would forgive you.

Roman hung up before Seth could have answered.
He was right, Dean would forgive Seth. Dean would do anything for Seth.
Dean would die for Seth, because he loved him, he really did.

Dean laid down on the bed after he took a shower. He didn't hear Roman talking, he would have killed him if he did.
Dean laid on the bed and looked up to the ceiling. His heart was broken, now it was only there to bump the blood through his veins.
He'll probably never be happy again, who would be happy if he knew that he will die alone, and that he will never feel love again? No one.
Dean tried to close his eyes, when he slept he can't feel pain.

Seth was still in the performance center, after Roman called him he couldn't just go home, he needed to be with other people, even if he didn't talked with them.
But he wasn't really able to focus, there was one thing on his mind, and nothing could stop Seth to think about it, him. Dean.
'Rollins, you're probably tired, go back to the hotel.' A trainer said and snapped him back to reality.
'Yeah, ehm, goodbye.' Seth said, he took his bag and walked to the hotel, it wasn't that far away from the center.
It was already dark and Seth looked up in the stars, and thought about everything.
Seth got better in the ring every day, he hoped that he will soon make his return, but then he would have to see Dean every day, altough Seth actually wanted to see him.

AN// Would you forgive Dean?
Or if you couldn't, would you lie to him?