I'm Here For You 《Ambrollins》

It's Over {38}

Dean cried the whole night long, he was an idiot. Seth knew everything of Dean, he loved everything of Dean, and he actually only asked for one thing. One damn thing, he just wanted that Dean never shows this side of him, because he was scared of it. And Dean did this one thing, the thing that Seth asked him not to do. He could bite himself in his ass for what he did.

Suddenly he heard how the door opened, but no one has keys for it. Dean was kinda scared, but he didn't bother to stand up, he didn't care if he would get killed now.
'Are you serious? Get you're lazy heartbroken ass up and go talk with Seth, I was just with him, he is as heart broke as you are. Go talk with him!' Roman said as he entered the bedroom where Dean laid on the bed.
'It won't bring anything Roman. I lost him.' Dean said, Roman rolled his eyes and picked Dean up from the bed.
'Hey! What are you doing?! Let me down!' Dean grizzled.
'No, I'll get your depressed ass now to Seth. And you know I'm the stronger man right now.' Roman said as he closed the hotel room door.
'No, I look like a jerk. Let me down!' Dean said and tried to get off of Roman but failed.
'This man loves you, he doesn't care how you look.' Roman said, he knocked on Sasha's door and Seth opened it.
'What the.. Roman?' Seth just said as Roman walked past him, he let Dean down and then he walked back out of the room. He didn't say any word.
Seth closed the door and Dean stood awkwardly in the main room.
'Seth, I need to talk to you.' Dean started and Seth just listened.
'I know that you know me better than anyone else, and that you know that I have this side. I know that you loved everything of me, and that you only asked for one thing and that was to not show this side of me. And I did it. I did the biggest mistake in my life, and the outcome was that I lost you. I could bite into my own ass for doing that.
Seth, I'm sorry. I love you and I need you.
I promise you that I won't show this side ever again. Please forgive me.'
Dean said almost crying and Seth had tears in his eyes too.
But Seth didn't say anything.
'Seth could you at least answer me?' Dean asked looking at Seth.
Seth didn't say anything and Dean knew what that meant.
'Seth, I love you and if you don't forgive me I can say one thing to you. I'll die alone.' Dean said and walked past Seth, he stopped for a second as he stood next to Seth, but Seth didn't do anything, and Dean left.

Seth heard how the door closed and he broke down on his knees.
He should have said something, Dean was really sorry. And the last words he said almost killed Seth.
'I'll die alone.' Seth whispered to himself.
'Me too.' He mumbled and then he couldn't stop it anymore and cried.
He lost the love of his life.

Dean walked back to his hotel room. He decided to not call Seth or text him or anything, Seth didn't want that and Dean has to accept that.

It's over, forever.

Dean was about to open the door, but was stopped by Roman.
'What did he say?' Roman asked.
'It's over, I fucked up. I lost him, forever.' Dean said but didn't turn around.
'Please let me alone.' Dean said as he walked into the room.
Roman accepted this and walked away.

But Roman wanted to talk to Seth, before he goes back to his room.
He knocked at the door which was opened by Seth who was all in tears.
Roman didn't hesitate and pulled him into a hug.
'It's o-over.' He sobbed.
Roman pushed him into the room, the others don't have to see Seth in this state.
Roman closed the door and Seth felt back into his big brother's arms. Roman rubbed over Seth's head and back.
'I didn't even say something to him.' Seth said and Roman was confused.
But then Roman understood.
'Do you know what his last words were? If you don't forgive me I can say one thing to you, I'll die alone.' Seth said and cried even more.
'Shh, Seth.' Roman said and tried to calm him down.
'You know, I'll die alone too.' Seth mumbled.
'First, you won't. At least you would have me.' Roman said.
'But, I'm an asshole for saying that. You should concentrate on you recovery now, and then you can look further.' Roman said and Seth was slightly pissed.
'I could kick your ass for saying that right now, but I know what you mean.' Seth said understanding.

Roman was by Seth to calm him down, but after an hour or two he left because Seth needed some alone time.
Seth curled up on the couch and tried to not think of Dean, but he wasn't able to, and in the other room Dean wasn't able as well.

AN// They broke up..

I think there will come a time skip to the time Seth is back, would you be okay with that?
Because if I would write about the time that is between that I would write depressed chapters, and they could be boring if they are ten depressed chapters.
But, time skip or not, of course they will come some depressed chapters in the time before Seth comes back.