40UR XL (Completed)

Chapter 5 Part 1

I woke up in my bed, no clothes on . I l looked up at my phone and noticed I had an unread text message. " I remembered ur momz comes home @ 6pm....so I had to roll out. Lol you were asleep. Call U when I can mamas."  I put my blackberry down and took a shower. he sent it to me hours ago, because it was already 5:30 in the morning the next day (yesssss my ass was knocked out COLD) . I got ready for school, all the while thinking about my very first time. It was kinda painful, but it worked out ..or better yet , I got a workout.*phewwww*. My mom got up really early, while I was in the shower, scrubbing my sins away. She made breakfast : Blueberry Pancakes ,eggs, sausage , and turkey bacon (because Natalia hated regular bacon). I usually left to go to school early, But I actually stayed and ate. They sized me up, noticing my new clothes. No compliments though instead my mom says: "Star, you finally sit here and join us...bout time." while  she unfastened her apron. "Yea..it's suprising that her ass misses breakfast in the first place." Natalia shot in. I didnt give a damn though. I was STILL on cloud 9. Usually I would of tried to say something back to her dumb ass, But Today!...... I aint wurried bout nothinnnnn (french montana voice).

I had on my Cheetah leggings and  a long Black blouse. Hair whipped, feeling good, feeling loved. My nose was in the air so high,  that I didnt even see my feet. I met Jenae in front of Ms.Hupher's class. "Damn that party was fun as hell huh Star!, Why you aint call me after though, you aint update yo facebook or nothin" she asked. Jenae had a big mouth, so I didnt even feel like telling her what was going on between me and Desmond. Matter fact, I  didnt want them to even know eachother."I was hella busy this weekend Jenae. And yeah, it was turnt."  I half-ass responded. "Mhmm, I aint stupid, you butthurt, cause you saw yo sis at the party with your SEXXXY JESSYYYY" she teased. "And,because yo ass left me outside looking stupid. that was real foul though" I snapped back.   I looked down in my phone, no texts no missed calls. I guess Desmond was busy assisting in one of these classes around here.Jenae , was still ranting about Natalia and Jessy, trying to piss me off. Speaking of Jessy, I saw him approaching our way in my preriphrial view. "Look here come Jessy, Ima tell him how you feel sinse you wont" Jenae stood, I nudged her side as Jessy walked up to me. 

   "Aye, you got my homework right... Lemme get it now so we wont have an episode, like we had last month with the preposals" He slightly demanded. Oh shit! I had TOTALLY FORGOT about doing Jessy's homework. I was pissed at him, and then Desmond DEFINATELY took my mind off of him. Bad thing about it , It was due today and  the assignment was worth 150 points. Ms. heffer's class was hard as hell to most people, because she docked points for every damn thing (bad grammar, talking, being a minute late, etc) "Well, come-on shit" he snapped. "I am so sorry Jessy, I was so busy this week I forgot."  i said with a little shake in my voice. I was sort of intimidated by him,because he was pretty demanding, and he was the type to talk shit like a female. That was the things I hated about him, regardless if he was sexy or not.

Him: WHAT THE FUCK YOU MEAN YOU FORGOT MY PAPER.

Me:  NO I FORGOT TO DO IT  I WAS BUSY--

Him: YOU KNOW THAT PAPER WAS WORTH A WHOLE LETTER GRADE..THE FUCK?!!

ME: WELL SHIT, IF IT WAS THAT IMPORTANT YOU SHOULD OF DID IT, OR GOT NATALIA'S HOE ASS TO DO IT. 

HIM:  YOU ONE TO TALK BITCH, EVERYONE KNOWS HOW YO FAT UGLY ASS WAS ON DESMONDS DICK YESTERDAY.

ME: (shocked as fuck)

HIM: YEAH I SAID IT... DUMB ASS BROAD. 

  What the fuck just happened. I stood there paralyzed , clearly embarrassed and confused. "Please dont tell me what he just said to you was true." Jenae said, breaking the silence. I wanted to knock fire from her punk ass, she never stood up for me ever and now she wanted to talk,. I just shook my head No to her, clearly upset. What she said neXt though I'd never forget. "Good, Because everybody know Desmonds a player, that dude flunked so many times that he's 17 year old freshman . He stay with his disabled grandma and drives her car around frontin' like its his and shit... fuckin looser. " 

LOOSER

LOOSER

Loser.

Those words echoed through my ears. You know when someone has a near death experience they start to see flashbacks? When their life flashes before their eyes in a matter of seconds? Well thats what happened to me. Only though, I was emotionally damaged.  I saw me upset, me being bullied, me looking in the mirror when I couldnt fit my birthday dress in 8th grade, I saw me in my room crying, then I saw me confiding into Desmond..I clenched my fist and didnt say a whole word for the entire period. I never felt so low in my life.