Untitled Letters

April

April 2, 2016

Dear you,

Hi! I miss you already. Yesterday was April Fool's day. Who did you prank yesterday? Me? No one. I don't like the idea of fooling anyone, ever. I don't like to lie to anyone and later on hurt their feelings. But, I want to ask you, was everything a lie? Please tell me. I promise I won't get mad. At least if you tell me the truth, I'll understand.
Okay! This isn't why I'm writing to you right now. Actually it is about my dream last night. You were in it. You were wearing black and waiting at the extension. Suddenly, this middle aged woman who seems like a mother came to me and picked me as one of her dancers. She was an instructor. I still wanted to stare at you but she called me and taught me the moves. It was humiliating. You were still there watching. And when the show started, I forgot the cue and started dancing a little late. You still had that serious face. Soon, it was over and you had to go to the main entrance but when I followed you, you weren't there. Where are you? I keep looking for you. Please tell me that you'll stay. I love you. I always will. I know you'll be returning.

Love always,
M

April 8, 2016

Dear you,
I hope you're okay. I realized that my neighbor might actually know something about you. That I like you and I can't stop. You might think I'm crazy. Maybe I'm just like anybody else. I just hope you don't get conceited because of what I told you.

My mistake.

I thought that I want you to know. But now people hate me for that. Maybe you hate me too. I still love you... But I guess I learned my lesson. I won't tell. I wish you really believed in me. You believed that I could meet the right one in the future and that he'll be perfect for me and he'll be lucky to have me. I thought that when you said that, you wanted me to be yours. But you made your choice. Now I'm just going to be patient.

Love,
M

9th April 2016

Dear you,

Hey! How are you? Just checking if you're alright. I know I shouldn't be asking or worrying. It's none of my business. I mean, we both have our own lives and I should've just let you live your own. I know I shouldn't meddle with your life. Look, I don't really want to bother you anymore. You must be happy already. But I'm really sorry. I can't help myself. I still miss you.
Maybe I deserve this. Maybe you're the type of guy who dislikes girls who admit their feelings. It's probably the stupidest mistake I ever made. I was trying my best to be different or to be special to you but all I do is ruin everything. I shouldn't have told you. I shouldn't have made it look like I wanted to be more. I should have been content with just friendship. Now, you're avoiding and ignoring me and it hurts. Guess I'm not different from them. I look pathetic. For that, I guess you want me to be out of your life.

Please, I already know I'm good for nothing. Already know that everything I did for you has gone to waste. Still, I want to thank you for being kind and nice to me. Still, I want to be part of your life. So, please, don't go.
I will still greet you on your birthday every year. Greet you in every holiday. I just wish you'll never forget me. I don't want you to hate me or dislike me or treat me with contempt. I just want you to like me like I thought/believed you did before. I know I'm defeated even from the start. I'd still won't give up.

Look, I don't expect anything. I just continue hoping even if there's no more hope left. I'm still holding on. Maybe if years pass and I continue this devotion, maybe then, you'll realize how much I'm willing to do just to be with you. I don't expect you to but I hope.

Also, I keep on telling you about this. Some bad girl told me that I won't have someone: she's such a bully to be so complacent and confident in that statement. I hated that. I hated her.