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Sept. 3, 2016

Dear You,

Tomorrow is my birthday and all I wish is for you to greet me because I haven't felt special. For me, that would be a miracle. Please, you're the only one who can make me see the light again. I know I'm not strong but when you show me that you acknowledge my existence, I believe I can. I believe in the impossible.

Now, I wonder how you are. If I'm asking for too much. Maybe I should just be patient.

I still love you. Or maybe I hope I don't. So that I won't feel this pain. But I can't let you go because I still dream about you.

Just one birthday message and it will be the best birthday gift. I'll pray for you.

Love,
M

Sept. 6, 2016

Dear you,

I'm so sorry. I was drunk when I said, "I love You!" I didn't really think it through before I said it. That's why added the word "Joke" and some emoticons in the end. You probably think it is just a joke now. Actually, it isn't. Jokes are half-meant but this time I really meant it. My heart was shouting and I can't hold my silence anymore, that's why I told you.

But I'm so scared what you might say. To you, I'm just a friend. That's okay with me as long as I'm not giving you any problems, as long as you're happy. Just know that you'll always be in my heart. I may not be able to love like she does, I may not qualify as a credible gf but I'll love you in my heart.

Just the other day, it was my birthday. God showed me how much He loves me. I was overflowing with love and I wanted to share that love with you. That's another reason why I said that.

Maybe I'm fated to be single but I know I'm still able to love my family, friends and you. I know I'm able to love you.

Love always,
MM

Sept. 18, 2016

Dear you,

When I gave you that strawberry key-chain, it's as if I gave my heart away. And every time you reply, it's like you gave a piece of it back. Having your heart ripped out is so painful and that's why I long for your replies. I really can't let you go. I ask God, why did I fall in love with this boy? Why can't I just join Sis. Rosemary and the nuns in serving Him? I still don't think I'm worthy or fit to be a nun especially when I'm still in love with you. I Love you!

Love always,
M

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