Lost.

Chapter 5

"You do ballet anymore?" Emily asked

i smiled immediately, "Yes. but only when i feel like it" i said looking at her

"but i never see you do it, we're together most of the time." she said

"I only do it when i'm alone" i said taking a sip from my coffee cup

"Any plans for today?" she asked

"Not really. the usual for everyday" i said shrugging my left shoulder

"I really like that boy in my French class" she admitted

"get more information about him" i said smiling at her

"How! you know that i'm a very shy person" she said.

"Man up!" i raised my left eyebrow as i smirked at her

"You wouldn't man up if you were me. would you?" she asked smirking

"Not really" i brushed the back of my head with a small smile on my face

"then don't ask me to man up" she said frowning.

"I can man up for you if you want" i said smirking.

"nonono thank you" she said shaking her hands in the air making me giggle at her reaction.

Emily knew that if someone challenged me in something i'd totally do it just to prove them wrong

"What you're gonna do? It's still 5:30. Our shift starts at 11am" she Asked

"I don't know. Probably go back home and write the rest of the chapter or complete the painting. I don't know" i said yawning

"You need to get some rest" she said looking dead serious.

"I don't want to. I'm fine. I'm drinking coffee" i said in defence

"You know that it's not you" she said tilting her head to the side as her face softened

"What are you talking about?" I asked frowning

"You're not the person that has insomnia. You're not the person who keeps themselves busy most of the time, and who stays up all night and barely sleep. You have to move on" she said holding my hand

I held my coffee cup tightly, "i'm fine." I said trying to convince her

"Celine. Accept the fact that you're not" she said

I felt tears building up in my eyes.
I closed my eyes and let out a heavy breath.

I looked up at her, "It's not easy" i said weakly

"I know, but i'm here. I'll be your stick. Just try" she said

"It hurts. I loved him with all my heart. And i gave him everything. And i trusted her, how could she do that to me! And where did he find the strength to do that" i said trying to hold back my tears

"They're gone now. It already happened Celine. You can't delete memories" she said

"I wish i can" i said back smiling weakly at her

"You'll be fine" she said reassuring me while giving my hand a tug.

I smiled at her weakly and nodded my head

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"For how long have you been watching me?" I asked embarrassed

"From the start" he said smiling. "You're very good. No need to be embarrassed" he added

"Thanks" i said looking at my ballet slippers