Lost.

Chapter 16

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6:12AM.
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I felt like i was suffocating.

No matter how hard i try my mind wouldn't stop talking, and thinking.

I felt the same way i used to feel when i was little.

When my mother wouldn't let me go out to play with my friends, i felt desperate, disappointed and like someone has both of their hands wrapped around my neck.

Suffocating me with all the power they got.

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I've decided to never feel this way again since my mother passed away.

And deep down i know it was all out of fear and concern, but i can't bear being trapped inside of a house all the time.

Even if that house was meant to be called home.

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Louise was long gone in her sleep on my bed anyways, so i wouldn't really worry about her.

I put on my black boots and leather Jacket

And headed out to the beach.

I walked through the Empty streets of Brighton with my freezing hands in my pockets.

I always liked to allow some coldness to sneak through my body, and since it was very cold it surely did.

The sky was still colored in purple and baby blue with only some sunlight peeking through the clouds.

Once i arrived at the beach, i saw a blonde girl sitting in Emily's and I usual spot.

Near the Pier.

She had a cloud of cigarettes smoke over and around her.

I walked closer to her only to realize it was Emily.

I felt my heart drop which made me stop in my tracks.

Should i go to her?

A sudden rush of blood went through my body.

I could feel my cheeks heating up, and my palms sweat,

But i've decided. I'll go sit with her.

I walked another few steps 'till i reached her.

I sat down with my heart beating so fast it could jump out of rip cage.

She handed me her half burnt Cigarette.

I raised an eyebrow at her not understanding that particular action.

"Take it" she said whilst looking at me.

I took the cigarette from between her fingers.

I placed it in between my lips and took a long drag out of it. The smoke burnt the insides of my nose making my eyes tear up, but at the same time i was relieved from the burning sensation in the insides of my throat and that i finally know that she is safe, and with me.

"What took you so long?" She asked as she stared blankly at the crashing waves.

"I didn't know you'd be here, i tried calling you. You never answered, also i wanted to give you some alone time.
You know how my brain works" I explained as i took another drag out of the cigarette before handing it to her.

"Sometimes i don't," she said huffing out the smoke

"What do you mean?" I turned my gaze to her

"Sometimes, i don't understand how your brain works. Sometimes you just run away and isolate yourself from everyone and everything. You refuse to talk, you refuse to eat, sometimes you refuse to live." She paused and i felt desperate to prove her wrong, but sadly..she was right.