Lost.

Chapter 15

"E em..” i could feel my tongue tied and the heavy lump formed in my throat, the last thing I would ever want right now is to fight with my only best friend.

"Em? Really em! You promised me, you fucking looked at my eyes and promised me you’d never lay a hand on this shit one more time” her voice started raising and I could feel people’s stares all over us

“Emily you don’t under..”

“I don’t what! I don’t what Celine, i don’t know how you feel? How hurt you are, what you’re going through, how he betrayed you and left you, I know all of that and I lived every single second of it with you, but here you are still saying the same exact words that hurts ME your best friend breaking our own promises as if nothing ever mattered”  she cut me off spitting every word after the second so thought a single break, I don’t blame her I deserve every single word she said to me..

"But you were not there today
Em, I was all alone having to deal with whatever shit Sam had to throw in my face, I wanted to relieve the damn pain cause it hurts, it still hurts” I tried to tell her I was hurt, that I wasn’t in my right mind right now for her to judge me or blame me, I just needed her to hug me..

"Anything else could've released the anger in your heart Celine stop making lame excuses ." Her voice started turning into a calm tune, even nearing a whisper, and there I knew that my friend was in the verge of giving up on the argument, she started thinking it was all in vain.

"You know what , i've always thought you were the strongest person i've ever known, but turns out that i was wrong, You are very weak Celine,You let everything, and everyone get on your nerves. You put everyone else before yourself.  and therefore you became weak, fragile, and very easy to break and hurt you like you’re some sort of a doll they can play with and throw away when they get bored.
you can’t even keep your own promises and you’re still crying over a guy who broke his to you, you are not moving on Celine, I doubt you even want to " She whispered before turning her back to me not sparing me even a second glance, that was the last thing I heard from her before totally disappearing from my sight .

"Emily!" Louise tried calling for her but it was no use, she was already gone.

She left me alone..sobbing in the middle of the street, in the arms of her new friend..and no matter how hurt I already was, I felt double the pain in my chest in this moment.
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3 days left

1:30 AM

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" I never meant to hurt her, i was just so stressed, you know?" I said as Louise handed me a cup of tea

"I've never seen her like that," Louise responded

"I just hope she's okay." I said taking a sip out of my cup feeling an urge to cry again.

"But, she was right though. I am weak. I let everyone get to me, i'm very insecure and i can't seem to be able to get my shit together" I said resting my head on the palm of my hand.

"She was angry, Celine. None of what she said is true. And i'm not just saying so to make you feel better.

I'm saying so 'cause she told me a lot of things about you, and trust me, if i were you i would've done something to myself.

What you've been through is very hard. and i'm really glad you made it out alive. I'm sure she will be back when she's in a better state," She said.

"I hope she does, thank you Louise." I said giving her hand a light tug.

"What happened anyways, and who's Sam?" she asked

"Sam is my manager, well Emily's and I manager.