Sam's P.O.V
I pace my room, trying to build up the courage to deal with what's been on my mind. I'm gripping my phone so tight that my knuckles are starting to ache but I ignore it. What if I ruin everything and he freaks out? What if things end up never being the same again? But then again, what if this is all so stupid of me and nothing changes at all? Maybe this is all just a big misunderstanding on my part. Before I can convince myself not to, I push the power button on my phone, making the screen light up. Dialing in his number, my heart is beating faster. Why am I so nervous to talk to him? Slowly, I bring my phone up to my ear and I'm so on edge that the ringing tone gives me a fright. I can ear a click on the other end and I'm silently hoping it's his voicemail. But of course it's not.
''Hello?'' I strain my ears to try and hear if he's with anybody else but I don't hear anyone. Just as I open my mouth to speak, I hear him again.
''Umm Hello?''
''Hi! I-It's Sam..'' I finally say, my voice shaking.
''Oh, hey what's up?'' I relax a bit at his chilled tone. Loosening my shoulders, I carry on the conversation.
''Um nothing I just..'' I start, having trouble finding words. ''I just want to talk to you... about something''
''...About what?'' His voice sounds different now, not as relaxed as it was a second ago.
''I just want to know...'' I'm trying to find the question but it's hard. ''Are we ok?''
''Huh?'' Great, let's just get to the point now.
''After we kissed...'' I hear a movement. ''You started acting...weird.'' I wait for him to say something but he doesn't so I just carry on.
''and I just wanna know if you're mad at me or something cus... that's what it feels like.'' I bite my lip, the suspense killing me. My stomach is sore as I nervously wait for a response. I'm half expecting him to just hang up the phone or say I'm being stupid but he doesn't. He just says:
''Meet me Macca's'' I furrow my eyebrows. Is he talking to me?
''What?''
''Ten minutes. Just meet me there'' And then the line goes dead. Is he kidding or...
I sit there for a couple minutes deciding whether or not to go because now I'm nervous. What if this is some kind of joke? But he would never do that to me. At least I hope not. I glance at my phone, realising that 5 minutes has already passed. Slipping on my shoes and grabbing my jacket, I run downstairs.
''Mum, I'm just going to meet my friends, I won't be long'' I didn't know that for sure but if I didn't say it, I probably wouldn't be allowed to go. It is pretty late after all. Once I say bye to Mum, I grab my keys and head off. Everything where I live is pretty close together so Macca's is only a 7 minute walk. I start walking quickly for some unknown reason. I guess I just want to finally get some answers after days of silence.
''You're here'' Calum states. He's sitting on the short, wooden fence outside Macca's, a milkshake in his hand. I zip up my jacket a bit more, the cold really just hitting me now that I've stopped walking. Nodding, I take a seat beside him. We sit there in silence for what seems like minutes, me taking sips from his drink every one in a while.
''So why did you ask me to come here?'' I finally ask, breaking the continuous sound of cars passing by. The sky is pretty dark now and a few stars are showing. I look at Calum, his black hair being blown onto his face by the light breeze. I like it when he doesn't do anything with his hair. I fight off the urge to reach out and stick my hand in it. It doesn't feel like the right time.
Calum shrugs. He shrugs. Great, I came all this way so he could ignore me in person. I sigh, looking forward again. I'm sick and tired of constantly feeling so powerless compared to everyone else. Before he can say anything else, I hop off the fence and start walking back the way I came.
''Hey! Sam, don't go!'' I stop walking and turn back around, my arms crossed. I don't walk back to him but I wait for him to say something to make me. ''Just... just please stay, ok?'' I'm defeated.
I roll my eyes, my arms falling to my sides, and make my way back over to Calum. I lean my back against the wall instead of sitting up on it this time. I stare straight forward, still kind of pissed off. Calum steps down off the fence and leans back against it, the way I am. I look the opposite direction as I feel him shift closer to me, nudging my side.
''Hey, don't be mad at me, Sammy'' Calum practically whispers, making my heart do a flip. What has gotten into me? I slowly turn my head to face him for a second to see if he's still being a dick. It's night time now and there is nobody walking the streets, just a few cars driving around.
''So you say I've been acting weird...'' Calum says, out of nowhere. I nod, looking forward again. ''Well there's a reason for that'' I finally look at him and he actually looks genuinely worried. I raise my eyebrows, urging him to go on. ''There's a girl'' Please don't. ''that I really like and... I feel like there's no way it could ever happen'' I literally feel like something inside of me died. I feel like my heart is going explode out of my chest with the way it's burning right now. My fingernails are digging into my palms, leaving sore, red marks and the lump in my throat is growing bigger and bigger. But I won't cry. Not here, not right now. I don't know what to say seeing as my one fear has just been confirmed. I didn't even know it was a fear until now but one thing's for certain.
I have feelings for Calum.
