Sam's P.O.V
Bursting into my bedroom, I push the door closed behind me. Leaning back against it, I go over everything that's just happened. He said it himself. He likes a girl and it's not me. I just didn't know I would take it so hard. Since when did I like Calum... in that way. I want to cry so badly but I can't. Not over something as stupid as this. At least I know why he's been acting strange now. He likes a girl and he obviously didn't want to kiss me at the fair. He wanted to kiss her but our stupid friends made that stupid dare and so he was forced into it. I can't help but feel extremely embarrassed for myself. We've been friends for so long so why would Calum suddenly decide he likes me anyway. Well I guess that's what I did but whatever. I wish the pain in my chest would go away. It's like a constant reminder that I'm just a foolish moron. I have no idea what I'm going to do now. I can't just stop being friends with him if I still want to be friends with all the others so that's out of the question. I guess I'm going to just have to suck it up and ignore my feelings until they disappear. That should work.
I wonder who this girl that Calum likes is. She's probably a slut, knowing the girls Calum's gone for before. What am I saying? That's jealousy talking.
'Whatever you do, Sam, please don't tell anyone'
He must really like this girl if he doesn't want anyone to know. Usually if it's a one time thing, he'll brag about it to all of us but he wouldn't describe it as 'liking' a girl. It would be more like 'having fun' or 'messing around' with a girl. Like he did with me. Ugh I still can't believe I ever did that. Maybe if I hadn't, I wouldn't be in this shit situation right now.
I'm dreading school on Monday so much.
Calum's P.O.V
Kicking my shoes off, I dive onto my bed. Staring at the ceiling, I think about everything I said to Sam tonight. What was I thinking?! What if she figures out or what if she already has? I should have just kept my mouth shut about the whole thing but it's too late now. She'll keep asking me about it for sure. That's what all girls do, right? And I'm just going to have to keep making stuff up. I guess I could just say I don't like this random girl anymore and we can just put it behind us.
I wish she knew but then again I don't want her to ever know. This is so messed up.
What's so messed up about a teenage boy liking a teenage girl?
The voice in the back of my mind makes a good point. I've never liked anyone this way before though. And I don't know what I'm supposed to do about it. No matter how much I try to ignore my feelings, they just keep getting stronger every time I see her. I wonder what she's thinking about right now. I won't be sleeping at all tonight.
Reaching into my pocket, I grab my phone. Sliding through my applications, I finally find the one I'm looking for. My face appears on the screen before me and I fix my hair quickly. I find Sam's facetime username and tap into it. I hesitate just as I'm about to press call. Chewing the inside of my cheek, I hold my thumb just above the call button. This is the problem, every time I say I'm going to stop feeling this way, I go out of my way to see her or talk to her. I push the home button, angrily, and throw my phone across the room. Ok, honestly I regretted it the second it left my hand. I don't even look at where it lands, I just stand up and strip down to my boxers. Turning off all the lights, I climb into bed, pulling the covers up to my chin and curling up into a ball. And of course, the same person enters my thoughts that has been doing so for the past month.
I'm never getting over Sam.
