Calum's P.O.V
I flicked the old sticker, that I'd just peeled off my bed, onto the floor and watched as it curled into the shape of a cylinder. I'd been lying on my bad for the past half hour just thinking stuff over. When did things get so complicated? Oh yeah, when Sam turned into the hottest person in our school that's when. Not that she wasn't hot before it's just... I don't know. She's gotten older I guess. My head nearly hurts just from thinking so much. I can't like Sam, not like that anyways. It would mess up our whole friendship. I know I'll just get over her and move on but I can't stop thinking back to when we kissed.
''Hello there my dearest brother'' I shift up to a sitting position as my older Sister, Mali, walks in the door. I smile up at her as she runs her fingers across my vast amount of Soccer trophies. I've played since I was like seven and I'm pretty good if I say so myself. I smile up at Mali, breifly. I pick at the skin on my fingers as she takes a seat at the end of my bed.
''What's up?'' Mali asks, seeming concerned. I sigh and shrug my shoulders.
''Nothing, just thinking...'' I say, lowering my voice a bit at the end. I feel her hands grip onto my ankles as she leans forward towards me.
'Cal!'' She says, loudly ''I know my own brother well enough to be able to tell when something's bothering you''
I glance up at her before continuing to examine my palms. I want to tell her everything. I need to tell someone because It's ruining me. My concentration in school and at home and even with my friends sometimes is completely off. Sam's on my mind everyday now and the fact that we're in the same school really doesn't help. When I see her I feel like screaming because of how she makes me feel and it makes me do crazy things like in the canteen the other day. I've known her for so long and never have I ever experienced this before. There's no way I can tell Luke or any of our friends. I'll just make everything weird and everyone will always be teasing me about it. I'm not known to have crushes or settle on anyone and it's easier if I just keep it that way.
I'm brought out of my thoughts by Mali waving her hand infront of my face and saying my name.
''Sorry'' I smile, innocently. The look of concern grows as she tried to read my emotions. I lower my eyes to look at my feet.
''Tell me what's wrong...'' She pleads, sitting back against the wall and bringing her feet up onto the bed aswell. ''You haven't been yourself lately and I'm worried about you.''
I shrug again, trying to get her to stop asking. She sighs, giving me a 'stop fucking around' look.
''Is it Sam?'' Mali suddenly asks, drawing my full attention. I open my mouth to speak but no words come out. I turn away from my sister and focus on the ATL poster on the wall infront of me. Before I realise what I'm doing, I nod my head slowly. I hear her sigh. ''What happened?''
''Nothing happened...'' I sigh, letting my head lean on the wall ''but I think I want something to...and that's the problem''
''So, you like her?''
I nod again ''alot''
Mali lets out a squeal, making me look at her. I raise an eyebrow as she moves up and down, grinning.
''I knew it!'' She screams, making me flinch.
''Well I didn't...'' I murmur, looking into my hands.
''So are you gunna ask her out?'' Mali asks, still grinning and staring at me intently. I snap my head up, my eyes going wide. I push myself up until I'm sitting up straight.
''What?! No! No definitely not...'' I yell, my heart pounding against my ribcage. Mali's face falls as she narrows her eyes at me, standing up off my bed. I bite my bottom lip as she makes her way over to the door. Just before she steps out, she turns around and looks at me, slightly pissed off.
''You know I thought you'd grow up and deal with your problems a bit, Cal...'' Her words sting but I roll over to face the wall so she can't see my face. Yeah, she's right. I know I don't show my feelings when it comes to things that matter the most to me. Even if I did have the guts to ask Sam out, I just can't. It would ruin our friendship. It's getting harder and harder for me to hold my self back everytime I'm near her and she's looking all cute in her school skirt or whatever. I don't care though. I'm going to keep pushing my feelings back until they disappear completely.
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I must have fallen asleep in that position because I'm woken up by the vibration of my phone on my cheek. I practically peel my phone off my cheek and check the screen to see a call from Sam's facetime ringing through. I quickly run a hand through my hair and rub my eyes before answering. I smile as Sam's face lights up when I answer. She's lying on her bed aswell, her hair surrounding her head and no makeup on. I ignore the voice in the back of my mind reminding me how much I want to be beside her right now.
''You're up!'' She whisper-shouts into the camera, giggling a little. I glance at my alarm clock on my bedside table, seeing that it's 3:47 am. My eyes widen as I turn to face my phone screen again.
''Holy shit. Why are you awake?'' I finally speak, my voice sounding raspy. Sam shrugs.
''I napped earlier and now I can't sleep'' I nod, understanding. We've all been there at some point.
''Sorry for waking you I just figured the others might never forgive me if I rang them at this time'' She smiles, sitting up in bed and making her phone stand up on it's own on the duvet.
''And I will forgive you?'' I laugh, noticing how Sam's not wearing anything but an oversized college t-shirt. She laughs in response, her black hair falling over her face slightly.
Sam's P.O.V
Me and Calum had been talking on facetime for around 4o minutes now, just laughing at random things on Tumblr. He's the best for having a laugh and everything's funnier at 4 in the morning. I finally start getting tired and start yawning alot.
''I think we should probably get to sleep now'' Calum chuckles, his hair falling over his forehead seeing as it's not styled or anything like it usually is for school.
''Oh GOD my hair...'' Calum says, as if he read my mind ''it looks awful'' I laugh as he tries to stick it up a bit but it just falls back over his forehead.
''You look cute, Cal'' I blurt out, instantly regretting it. '' I-I mean your hair looks...it looks fine'' I blurt out like an idiot. I shift around on my butt, being awkward. Good job, Sam. I cringe as Calum raises his eyebrows at me, laughing. We say our goodbyes and then I hang up the call. I hadn't napped during the day I just couldn't sleep and I guess I just wanted to talk to Calum. I feel stupid for waking him up just for that but I'm definitely in a better mood now.
