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Better Than HyunA [RM]

Code:

Y/N - Your name

F/C - Favorite color

F/D - Favorite drink (not di!k)

Y/F/F - Your favorite food

Warnings: 

- Self harm

- negative thoughts/sentences

- swearing

- mention of sex

- (extra) mild smut (no coitus I promise)

- eating disorder/extreme dieting

Word Count: 2,649  

If I romanticize self harm in any way, that is not my intention. I still struggle a bit with it myself, so I know how upsetting that can be. Somebody requested this so I think I'm going to keep their name private. (I also believe they do not mean to offend anyone.)  

You glance over at your TV in the living room and sigh. Your boyfriend Namjoon is getting interviewed by his celebrity crush HyunA. You can't help but think she's better than you. Namjoon seems to think so as well, based upon how he's looking at her. And at home, he talks about her about her all the time...until he notices that you're getting annoyed.  

"Sooo...anyone special in your life?" HyunA bats her long eyelashes at him causing the audience to whisper excitedly.

"I uhm...no. Not that I can think of," he smiles brightly at her. Wow. I know the company said we couldn't come out as a couple but that's just cold. He could have at least said that he likes someone.

HyunA laughs, "Wow, well I'm sure you'll find someone."

"Yeah. I hope so," he chuckles.

You sigh and walk to the bathroom to weigh yourself. You weigh {insert weight here(this only works if you weigh more...sorry). HyunA revealed that she weighs 95 lbs (43 kg).   

A few days later, you begin your plan to lose weight. You vow to diet and exercise until you weigh less than HyunA, so Namjoon will love you more than he loves her.

Your phone rings loudly right beside you causing to jump a little before you answer it.

"Hello?" you answer.

"Hey sweetie. I haven't talked to you in three days. Like...at all. Are you okay? How are you?" Namjoon asks worriedly.

"I'm fine, I'm fine. I've just been..." you trail off as the right word finds its way to you, "busy."

There is a silence then, "Okay. Well I just called to tell you that my schedule is packed so we can't really go out on dates for a week or so. I'm really sorry. I wish I could be there with you more," he sighs.

Your heart skips a beat. He can't see you before you're perfect! "Oh no. It's totally fine. I understand. Just.. call me whenever you can!" you say slightly unlike you, but he doesn't seem to notice.

"Okay babe. Can't wait till I can speak with you in person. Bye!" he hangs up without waiting for an answer.

This is going to be slightly more difficult since it's a shorter time than you expected, but it's fine! You don't really have to eat more than a small salad a day. You just want to. You sigh and put down your apple. This is going to be a long week.  

*10 days later and 20lbs gone*

(As you can see, I'm not sure how weight loss works, so if that's unrealistic don't yell at me.)