one chance [k.b of day6]

four

10:29 pm
"you useless piece of junk. go and die. you are just a mistake."

those are the words i hear all the time. i take those words very seriously. i try to recall who i heard those words from.

huh. who was it? i know. the person who beared me in her womb. the one who said 'i love you' to me first. my mother.

it hurts because she hates me for making one mistake. i didnt mean to do it but i did. her regretting my existence. really makes me feel useless.

everyday i think where you and dad are. dont you ever wonder how im doing? yes the mistake happened 2 years ago..but how could you leave a 17 year old alone?

it hurts.