Back to Reality

~Chapter Eight~

"What about your parents could possibly drive people away from you? You aren't your parents---"

I cut him off because I couldn't let him talk bad about my parents. "I don't really want to talk about this in such a public place. By the way, if this is in town, how come I have never seen this place before?"

It was true, I hadn't seen the place, but I also wanted to change the subject. I did puzzle me though that I had never seen the little bistro . . . Our town is a small one, so I have seen just about everything. How did I miss an entire building?

"I'll tell you later, but now is not the time to change the subject." Nathan said simply.

"What if we go to my house, and I tell you where no one else can hear. I didn't say I wouldn't tell you, I said I don't want to talk about it here." I said, taking a bite of my lunch. I don't really want to talk about it at all, but I don't think Nathan is the kind to just give up on something.

"Oh, okay. So you want to go to your house after lunch?" He questioned gently, with a pleading look in his chocolate brown eyes.

"Yes, but right now I want to eat," I said, shoveling my mouth full so he wouldn't ask me any more questions. Too late did I realize how unlady-like I was being in front of the only person who thought me a lady. I blushed and swallowed, making sure to take smaller bites.

I looked up at Nathan, and realized he was done eating. How he could pack away that much food that fast was beyond me. I never even saw him take a bite. I hurried up with the rest of my food -- while trying to be as lady-like as possible -- while he paid the bill, and we left the restaurant. 

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 On the ride to my house, I was a nervous wreck.

I have never told anyone my story. Everyone at school just knows it and they hate me . . . What if he hates me too? He is my only friend, I don't want to lose him---

" . . . Sam, we're here."

"Oh, I'm sorry, I was just thinking," I said as he helped me out of the car. I opened the door to my house, and paused.

"How did you know where I live?" I asked, "I don't remember telling you."

"Uh, we were right around here when I uh--- and you told the nurse your address. Now stop stalling Sam."

I must've been really out of it, I don't remember telling the nurse anything but my name.

He can see right through me, I was totally stalling. Oh well, I tried.

"Uh, okay. Um, make yourself at home," is all I said.

Nathan walked over and sat on the couch, and I sat down next to him. "Now will you tell me?" He asked quietly.

I took a deep breath and started my story. "Two years ago today. I lost my parents. And it was all my fault.

When I woke up, there was a man on top of me . . . He had his hand over my mouth, and he said---" I hiccuped and started to cry. "H-he s-s-said th-that if I m-made n-noise th-th-then he w-would kill whoever c-came, b-but I didn't l-l-listen, and w-when he l-l-let go I sc-screamed anyway. I was s-selfish, if I h-had just l-let h-him do wh-what he wanted my p-p-parents would s-still be alive"

I hated to relive this, but one I started, I just couldn't stop.

"B-both m-my parents came bu-bursting in through t-the d-d-door. My m-mom had t-the phone a-and was calling 911, a-and my dad h-had a kitchen kn-knife. B-but h-he had a g-gun . . . Dad n-never st-stood a ch-chance. He sh-shot my p-parents, and he m-made me watch, b-but the c-cops came be-before he cou-could take me. But be-before they got here h-he told m-me he wanted m-me to live be-because I sh-should re-remember how I k-killed my parents. H-he said I should h-have a physical sc-scar as well a-as the m-m-mental. He w-waited until he could hear sirens a-and he s-stabbed m-me three t-t-times. Once f-for what h-he didn't g-get to do, and once for e-each of my parents. M-my parents died, a-and I'm al-alive, and it's all m-my f-f-fault . . . "

I lost it. All those pent up emotions just came flying out.

Before I could even show him the scars.

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A/N

Question of the chapter:

What is your favorite character?

Video game, cartoon, comic book, whatever... I just want to know. I, as you already know, am a Yoshi fanatic; so what about you?

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"A dream is what makes people love life even when it is painful." - Theodore Zeldin