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It's Better This Way

I woke up again smiling harder than ever. I turned to the empty side of the bed and frowned. I hoped he hadn't gone to work but I know he had. I sighed and went to the bathroom. I came out to see a full breakfast sitting on the bed with a note.

I love you, Breezy

I squealed only to feel two arms wrap around me from behind. I knew who it was immediately "Hmm morning sunshine" I giggled and blushed "Morning" I leaned into his touch as he ran kisses up and down my neck. I fought the mewl that sprang from my lips when he kissed my sweet spot and pushed him away a little "I wanna eat" I whined even though it was truly about how long I would be able to stand. I was surprised I lasted this long. I sat down trying not to stare at the shirtless man in front of me. I smiled down at my food while he moved to sit beside me "You're glowing" he whispered kissing my shoulder. I blushed knowing it was true. I'm a mess right now and it's all his fault. But I've never been happier. Our moment was interrupted by Nita who came in with Shay, Natalia, Kat, and Elena in tow. Me and Chris exchanged glances them looked back at the girls who entered squad deep "Chris we understand you've had shit planned for today with our girl but that's not happening my wedding needs planning and I need my girls.... All of them at my side we start early for maximum achievement" I looked at Chris and shrugged he rolled his eyes but left anyway. As soon as he closed the door the girls jumped on the bed almost knocking my food over. They shouted at the same time questions equally invasive and crude. I put my hands up "Alright alright... It was perfect he was sweet about it but as soon as I was comfortable he put it on me" I said laughing hard afterwards. Shay made a face while the other girls high-fived. Natalia clapped and all eyes were on her "So my sister is getting married motherfuckers and as maid of honor I officially call this meeting to order let's get it" we nodded and got up Kat threw pencils and paper on the desk in the corner and we got to work. When it was all said and done we had spent a good few hours arguing about it but we did it. They're wedding was soon so if we didn't we'd be in trouble. Nita and Tyga know that in the profession they chose time was of the essence and if they wait who knows what could be taken away from them. It was them I noticed the ring on my left finger. I should've taken it off by now but I knew it would be final of I did. My final step away from Liam and all that he gave me. The girls conversed amongst themselves as I stood and walked over to the drawer. I sighed taking the ring off and laying on top of my drawer. As I let it go I could feel the weight lift off of me. I turned to see the girls watching me. No one said anything but they got up and hugged me "I'm so sorry girl I forgot" Nita said making me frown "Don't let me bring you down its your time not mine" she was about to say something when Natalia spoke up "That's right your time girl" we laughed and had a girl day. Well it was until the girls had to go on a mission. Part of me wanted to be apart but another part of me doesn't want to get in any more dangerous situations. Especially now. It just seemed fun. I walked to Chris' office about to knock when I heard "I don't know what to do... I know that if I declare war that means raining hell on the assholes behind the attacks but we don't know anything... I have no idea how many guys they have or how good they're guys are" it was then that an idea came to my mind. I went back to my room and thought it over. They want me for some reason and I need to know why. What better way to find out then to ask myself and while I'm at it report to Chris? The idea was solid they wouldn't suspect me to them I'm just a scared little girl. I know what I need to do. If it means protecting Shay and her baby from anymore attacks I'll do it. Chris came in and flopped on the bed "How was your girls day babe" I swallowed and breathed in "I want to go to see the boss of the Foster gang" he paused "What" I rolled my eyes sitting on his lap "If you send me I'll know why they want me and can do recon on them you'll know everything" he blinked a couple times them spoke "Hell no Mari you know how dangerous that is... Anything could happen what if you get caught... I'm not allowing you anywhere near them" I groaned "Chris this isn't just about me or my safety of risking my life to save Shay and her baby from the pain I went through I'll do it" he was silent after that how do you respond to that? As a leader you know what to do, as a boyfriend you want to do the opposite. So what do you do? I silently pleaded with him, the gang needs this. He sighed kissing my temple "Maris I just got you back I... I don't... I can't lose you" j knew what I was asking would kill him to do but it had to be done. We both knew what we had to do no matter how much we didn't want to. That night we spent the night in each other's arms. I woke up my face wet and I began packing my stuff. I moved quietly finishing quickly and throwing my bag into the Audi I know belonged to Liam. I started the car and drove off "It's easier this way" no sad goodbyes to break my heart only a small cry as I closed the door. My tears came down as rivers but I let them when I arrived it would seem like I was still steeped in grief over Liam. I stole the address from Chris' desk and had the phone he gave me. I also wrote it on my arm in case they take my phone. I was doing this. I wiped my face as I started on the road to New York City.