Please put me in a psych ward
at least you won't be there.
Please put me in a psych ward
so I can make new friends.
I totally qualify to get in
and maybe it'll be a lot of fun
meeting people with problems like me
and hoping that I'd never leave
because it'd be better than home
with you two arguing all the time
and yelling at my brothers
Just because they like to smoke.
Then yelling at me just cuz you want to
and making me cry, oh I bet you like that
I'd rather fucking die, the whole world would like that.
What am I to people?
Just a burden, no one cares.
Shut the fuck up everyone, no you don't
and people say they love me
even though they have no idea
that love isn't actually real.
I don't know what my mind is thinking half the time,
all I know is that I'm crazy
and no one could ever help me out
because I won't tell anyone anything
at least about my feelings.
It's not that I don't want help,
but I don't, it's just because...
I always explain it wrong,
like as if in my head it's right
but my words can't show it
goddamnit I can't do anything right
so what to do now, what to say.
My parents apologized, they won't go away.
I wish two hadn't, I wish they said bye
so that I could leave them
and move somewhere happy instead.
Now I'm much less than happy,
I'm enraged, depressed, frustrated, stressed, confused, contemplative, suicidal, anxious, abnormal, wondrous, joyous, annoyed, and drained.
All at the same time.
And you think that you can help me?
Well your wrong, no one can,
I'm too fucked up for the whole fucking world
and you know something else?
I cover it all up.
So no one sees anything that I feel,
only the fake emotions I wear
and therefore nothing is real,
no one knows the real me.
So that means my parents dont know shit
and that therapist that said I was fine?
I fucking lied to that bitch,
it was fucking hilarious.
So instead of being fucked up I'm fine
and instead of talking I hold it all in
but soon I won't be able to hold it all in,
I'll explode into a million pieces
and no one will be at my funeral.
So please...put me in a psych ward
so that I won't be bored.
Put me in a psych ward
because you don't trust me abrupt don't like my friends or my hair or the way I act but get this, you fucks, I'll never change!
