I was at the park with Chris, Jon and James, it was a bit awkward for me as I was friend with Kate and it was awkward between her and Jon. I've tried to keep mutual, even though I know that Chris has to take his brother's side.
I was wearing my black jeans a white baggy sweater. It was pathetic how even in August I could wear a jumper and still be cold.
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I was trying to keep the conversation light and keep the topic off Kate.
"So have you two done the dirty yet?" Jon asked.
"Why would you ask that?" I said and hid my face in Chris' shoulder.
"You have" He shouted. "I hope it was not at our house while I was over"
"No it was at her house, I can't believe you thought I would do it while you or mum was in the house." Chris said. "So I know we're trying to keep off the subject we need to talk about Kate"
"I personally think that she's most upset that you called her a slag, and she's now really upset because you've both lost Dan's trust now."
"I do regret calling her a slag, but she really hurt me and I'm not going to apologise for that."
"I just think you need to get together and just get all your feeling out in the open." I paused. "No more secrets."
It was then that I saw Kate and Dannii were walking towards us. "Oh hello" I gave them both a hug and no one really knew what to say.
"You alright Jon?" She asked.
"Stupid question isn't it" He then went on a rant. "You've made me look like a right mug. All my friends can't trust me and I fully believe Dan will never seem me in that way again."
"Calm down" Chris said and tried to get his brother to see sense.
"Don't tell me to calm down, I am" He then went back to Kate. "You know that more people could come forward and huge evidence against you, I stand by the fact that you're a slag."
"Hey Chris go and calm him down" I said and then two went off.
"He's such a prick" Kate said.
"You'll never have a rational conversation with him, his anger will always come first." I said. "He knows he is in the wrong but he doesn't have the guts to say that to you."
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We were at Roma, Lydia's sister's, birthday party, which was nice for her to invite us to, even though we didn't really know her. I was sat with her and Lydia as I have her a present. It was ice to be at the party as all the kids were innocent and just wanted to have fun without drama.
I was wearing a blue and white playsuit, with gold rings on my arms. I tried to keep it nice and innocent for the family party.
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"Happy birthday" I said and gave her a kiss. "I can't believe that you're 13, you're going to be coming out with us next."
"Thanks" She said and opened my present. I'd bought her a dress, which is in my new line of clothing I had just brought out. "Thank you I love it"
"I did ask Lydia for your size but If it's the wrong size or you done like it come and see me"
"I feel like she's never going to go the Essex way though and do all the sleeping with guys and dating" Lydia said. "She's seen enough with James and I to put her off forever."
"Is it weird that James isn't around any more, I mean I guess he used to be like a brother to you."
"Yeah, it's a bit weird. I can't remember a time when James was not present in my life."
"Come and see me if you need a bit of dating advice, I have a better relationship than them two." I joked.
"Hey, I'm perfectly fine single."
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We came straight from the get together to the snooker night that Arg had organised. I saw Chris as he hadn't been at the party, so I hadn't seen him for a few hours.
"Hey Babe" I said and gave him a hug.
"Hey" He said and gave me a hug. "Do you know how to play snooker?"
"No I'm absolutely terrible." I laughed. "Show me."
We did that traditional couple pose with Chris behind me showing me how to do it. I saw that Jon was about o go over to James and Diags, so Chris needed to go and sort it out. I went over to Dannii and had a chat with her.
"I haven't really spoke to you these last couple of days since the sports day. This morning it all got a bit heated and we couldn't really speak." She said. "So how are you and Chris?"
"It's just a bit tense because Chris has to stick up for Jon and Kate is my friend. It's all just making me think that is this relationship worth losing one of my best friends over"
"That's a decision you have to make. My best advice would be to just speak to Chris and see if he can just cool it off a bit wth Jon."
