Our Little Secret {n.h}

chapter 31

"Okay, what's the matter?" Louise asked as I took my third shot of the night and I just shook my head.

"Nothing." I mumbled and ordered a beer, knowing that I couldn't get too drunk tonight.

"Okay, something is obviously wrong." Caroline rolled her eyes and I looked down at my drink, not wanting to talk about it. "How's Niall?"

"We got in a fight." I shrugged and they both sighed. "Nothing to worry about. I came to have fun with you guys and that's what is going to happen tonight."

Both of them hesitantly nodded and we continued drinking, changing the topic of conversation. I finished my beer and ordered a water, wanting to sober up a little bit. I knew that I had to drive myself home and I couldn't get pulled over. I checked my phone to see multiple texts from Niall, all of which I ignored, and noticed that it was already eleven o'clock. I had to be at work tomorrow so I decided to leave, not wanting to be exhausted in the morning.

"I'll see you guys later, alright?" I said and gave them both hugs as we walked to our cars.

"Call me if you need anything." I nodded at what Louise said and unlocked my car. "Promise?"

I nodded and got into my car, turning the ignition on. I began driving home and furrowed my eyebrows at the sight of another car in the driveway. I parked and hesitated to go inside, a little scared because I had never seen the car before. I walked inside and tripped over something, making me look down. There was a pair of heels in the walkway and I gulped, hearing noises down the hallway. I slowly made my way down and stopped in my tracks at the voices.

"Oh, fuck. I love you." I heard Niall groan and a lump formed in my throat.

"I love you too, baby." I heard a woman and I realized it was the secretary from the magazine.

I finally decided to do something so I opened the bedroom door to see Niall on top of the secretary. His head snapped towards the door and his face fell at the sight of me. He scrambled off of her and she screamed, pulling the sheet over her chest. Niall quickly put on a pair of boxers and she put her clothes on while I stood in the doorway, tears threatening to fall from my eyes.

Insecurities filled my mind as she got out of the bed and I swallowed my tears, not wanting him to see me upset. I mean, of course he would choose to love her. She's the total package and everything I'm not. Long legs, tan skin, blonde hair and blue eyes. She was practically perfect. She left the room and I just kept my eyes on the floor, not daring to look at Niall.

"Ari," Niall whispered and I shook my head, finally meeting his eyes.

"You said you wouldn't fall in love with anyone." I said quietly and he gulped.

"I didn't mean it." He tried to cover up and a tear fell down from my eye.

"Our bed, Niall." I said. "You told another woman that you loved her in our bed. You had sex with another woman in our bed."

"I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking." I cut him off by walking backwards to the hallway. "Ari, please."

"I thought I could handle this whole open relationship thing, but I don't think I can. We obviously have very different views on it so maybe I should just leave." I said and Niall followed me to the kitchen. "I'm gonna go stay with Louise for a few days."

"No, please don't go. We can talk about this." He begged and I shook my head.

"I can't do this anymore, Niall." I choked out. "We barely even talk anymore and I come home to you telling someone else that you loved them. You haven't told me that in two months. I don't want to feel like this anymore." I finished, my voice breaking as I talked.