psychadelic • m. espinosa

ten

10

The next few days had me baffled to say the least. I had avoided pizza as much as I could, but every night I had a dream. It lingered in my mind now as Jack mumbled about all of his aspirations to become a world-known rapper as big as Drake or Kanye West or Logic, I couldn't keep track of all the people he listed. I felt bad for not paying attention to him, I legally am supposed to but as much as I want to handle his problems I have a past-occuring one coming back to haunt me for the second time in my life.

There was a face. I couldn't quite describe how it looked, but all I know is I was just.. mesmerized. By its beauty, that is. The face I had seen countlessly in my dreams had me astoundingly in shock, and not with lust, but with love. I'm not sure if I had made up the face in my mind, but it just made me so utterly stunned that I couldn't help myself. 

A part of my mind had told me that I've seen the face before, but I just couldn't believe that. If I had ever seen something so beautiful I would force myself to make contact with the person and try my best to have them wake up next to me every morning and call them mine, it was just that beautiful. It's not even that the face was beautifully structured, with a nice jawline and nicely dotted freckles, it was just the way that when you looked at him, you could see something so beautiful. Dreams, so many of them, all being good of course. Goals. You can tell that he truly aspired to be the best inspiration out there. 

I didn't understand myself how I could be so in love with someone I had never met (possibly) and how I'm even loosing track of every-day things I usually am on top of my game with. I was scared to invite anyone over to my house, not that I had friends anyways, but I had sketched so many drafts of his face. Whoever he even is, has consumed my mind.

"Fe? Did you hear me?" Jack interrupted me from becoming even more crazed with this man, making me look over at him.

"Oh, yeah. I zoned out for a second my bad, what were you saying?" I asked him, suddenly remembering that I had a job to attend to.

"I was saying.. I think I'm getting better. The front desk lady said they've been reviewing my chart and I might be let go soon!" Jack cheered happily, making me frown.

"Awe, this sucks," I pouted. Jack halted his actions and stopped looking happy, shocked by my words. "I won't have any one to talk to in here anymore."

I mean, I did have other patients but none were as cool as Jack was, like I said before most of them just used me to get outside stuff like Candy.

"Just because I'm getting out doesn't mean we can never talk again," Jack smiled, placing his hand on my shoulder. I looked up at him and saw his eyes dilate, then after he quickly retracted his arm. 

"Something wrong?" I asked, truly concerned. Some doctor's just fake their emotions but when you get as attached to a patient as I am with Jack you start to think of them as family.

"Yeah, what? I'm fine. I just, I don't think this is going to be our last time talking. Something reassures me that we'll be in touch, a lot." Jack mumbled the end sort-of incoherently, making me eye him.

"Well.. Okay. I think that ends our session today, I'll be back in about an hour to escort you to lunch, alright?" I asked him as he eyed the corner of the room, seeming frantic.

"Jack?" I asked again, wondering if he truly is prepared to leave the mental hospital. He seems really jumpy lately.

"Oh yeah, umm.." Jack paused, seeming to ponder in thought. "I think I'll meet you there, is that fine? If not I can ask the front desk lady to take me." He finished, looking down at the floor.

"Oh, well okay. See ya there," I mumbled, leaving his room as disappointment sunk in. I really hoped Jack didn't feel that offended that I didn't listen to him in today's session, I would hate to loose another friend.

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