Totally Jinxxed (book 1 of 3)

Death has come to claim your beautiful remains

(savanahs POV)

i would never forget how quickly my life changed over the past several years. nobody would ever know how or why I am the way I am now.all I know is that nobody will ever ask.let alone care...so why should I even try?

I guess I could say its all saphires fault, but its not entirely true.

see, there was once a time when we both got along.we were practically inseparable. but all that changed when she met gabriel..

not only did our relationship as sisters change, she changed along with it. after awhile, it was like she became a complete stranger to me.she's forgotten who she was before she became the self centered bitch she is today.

she's made my life a living hell ever since.

although I had just as much power to ruin her as she did to me.I would never stoop to her level.

I've got secrets nobody would ever believe.about me, my parents, a few of saphires stupid friends and even the queen bitch herself.

but what does it matter? its not like ill ever tell a single soul. shit. let's face it.I don't even have anyone to tell them to. like saphire said, I'm an emo loser. I have no fucking friends!

she was always right.I would never admit it out loud.not to anyone.only myself, because that's really all I have left.myself, and my precious blades...and black veil brides of course.

sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be just like her.heartless,confident, without a care in the world.because I'm soo popular and pretty and every one looks up to me.

wouldn't that be amazing?...

it sounds a hell of a lot better than being me. Fuck! anything sounds better than being me.

so, in the end she'll always win.she always has and probably always will. no doubt about that....

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I couldn't move or open my eyes, no matter how hard I tried to.I just couldn't get myself to move.it was hard enough just to breathe.

everything happened soo quickly.one minute I'm crossing the street and the next I'm in extreme pain and another im put to sleep for god knows how long...

what day is it anyway?

I missed my room. my music, and my parents. being here felt like hell, in its quietest form.

a couple minutes later I hear someone open and close a door.

"you're still not awake huh?" he said in a voice that sounded like he was just crying.although his voice sounded a bit familiar.

"I kind of hoped you would be."

at the sound of his voice, I wanted soo badly to just be able to see who he was.

"I fucked up...really bad,this time."

dammit! why does moving have to be soo damn impossible?!

he took a deep breath.

"I can't do this anymore."

"I tried soo hard to take care of her."

I felt his warm touch on my hands.

"everything I did, just made it worse..I don't know what to do."

after some thought,I realized it was jinxx....but why would he come see me?

"you're never going to believe how much saphire has changed, savanah."

did she become even more of a pissy bitch? nothing is ever going to change her.I dont even think an act of god will change the monster shes become.