Totally Jinxxed (book 1 of 3)

Regrets still haunt my hollow head

(gabriels POV)

*Saturday morning*

the sound of my phone alarm, woke me up again at 10 am.I shut it off and got out of bed.

there really wasnt much to do today except hang around and do nothing.

what's the point in even waking up?

I picked up my phone and called vincent.no answer.

I called matthew and brandon.another no answer from either one of them.

there was no point in calling kaylee, because she was most likely with brandon.

I thought of calling saphire but she probably still hates me because of the humiliating incident...

I was soo stupid to let that happen. especially to her.

when she's done nothing wrong,to me or anybody else for that matter.

I remembered why she sided against vincent and kaylee, the day of the big fight.

I remember the fear that struck in her eyes when she realized who kaylee was beating up in the video.the sheer shock of the event as it happened right in front of her.

I remembered the moment she realized she had the need to protect her sister.

how could I have forgotten that she had a younger sister in the first place?

I took a deep breath before heading over to my closet and got dressed in a red tshirt and jeans.

the dull moments never seemed to end. once saphire was soo cruelly kicked out of our group no one seemed to realize that she was the glue that kept us all together, in perfect harmony.

everyone seemed to drift apart after awhile...and things never felt the same again..

brandon and kaylee always run off to the staff bathrooms to do whatever they please.

vincent and matthew usually disappear for most of the week somewhere doing god knows what.

and I'm left here...by myself.

I mean, of course there were occasionally a couple of girls that I hung out with but they weren't the ones I truely wanted to hang out with..they werent who I wanted to be with..

none of those girls were saphire..

everyday, I regret what I've done to her.

everytime I look at what she's become, I blame myself for it.

every moment I see her...is just another damn emotional and mental torture.

once I was dressed I went down stairs to the kitchen for breakfast.

I poured myself some cereal and sat down at the table.

its only been two weeks since the last time I saw saphire..or since she's been to school..and three and a half months since we've even spoken to each other.

to be honest its killing me knowing that, that amount of time will only get longer.

I got up once I was done with my cereal and put my bowl in the sink.

I decided that I would go see saphire for myself.I've been brooding over her for too long...

I grabbed my hidden bottle of jack daniels-her favorite brand of whiskey- and my car keys then headed out the door, to saphires place.

**15 minutes later**

I hid the bottle of whiskey inside a black plastic bag and knocked on the front door.

a minute later, saphires mom-annette- opens the door with a smile.

"Gabriel! how nice of you to visit!"

I smiled back."its nice to see you again, annette."

"what brings you here?" she asked.

"is..uh..saphire home, by any chance?" I ran a hand through my hair.

her lips formed a straight line."she moved out, about two weeks ago, hun.I'm sorry."

"oh." I frowned.

"I'm sure she'll keep in touch with you at school."

I sighed. "well,its just.. that she hasn't been to school in two weeks."

she stayed silent.

"is there anyway you could get her to contact me?" I asked.

she motions me to come inside.

"she's supposed to come pick up some stuff of hers, in a couple of hours.if you want,you can wait here until she arrives." she smiled.

I shook my head. "ill just leave a note."

she nodded and walked off to the kitchen.

I walked into saphires old room and searched for a piece of paper and pen.

once I found them, I started to write:

"Saphire, we need to talk...

meet me at the old park tomorrow at 5 pm..if I don't see you..ill understand why..

you dont have to come...- Gabriel"

I placed the note and the covered bottle of whiskey on top of the bed.

I took a big long deep breath and left the house, towards my car and drove back home.

for once in my life, I'm going to take control.and get everything back to the way it was...

~AUTHORS NOTE~

its FINALLY time to say that Totally Jinxxed has come to an end...its been a long journey since the beginning and I gotta say that MANY things can happen in just a couple of chapters, as all of my readers can see. ;)

anyways, theres a sequel to this and its called 'Beautiful Surrender' for anyone whos interested.

it'll have the same uploading schedule as totally jinxxed (mon/wed/fri)

sooo I guess, thanks for reading guys!

I hope to meet you all again on Beautiful Surrender! :)