Totally Jinxxed (book 1 of 3)

You're by yourself with me tonight (part 2)

i answered the door and see a tall man with long black hair standing in front of me.

his arms were hideously covered in tattoos and he wore a black vneck,black skinny jeans with red converse.the only thing attractive about him was his bright ocean blue eyes.

he grinned.

i raised an eyebrow "who I the hell are you?" my voice went cold.

he frowned. "hi, my name is jinxx... i..helped your sister get to the hospital the other day." he struggled to say,as he ran a hand through his hair.

WHAT?!?

i couldnt believe what i had just heard. savanah? in the hospital? for what?!

"um.." was all i could say.

"can i come in?" he asked nervously.

"i guess." i mumbled as i let him in and closed the door behind him.

as he walked in our living room he immediately started looking around the room and smiled.

"you have a nice house."

"uh...thanks.." i rolled my eyes,but he was too busy looking around to notice.

"so..why are you here,exactly?"i asked maliciously

"oh..um..i wanted to...you know.."

i sighed and rolled my eyes again. "spit it out.i dont have all day."

i crossed my arms over my chest and leaned against the wall beside me.

he took a deep breath as if it calmed him.

"i just wanted to see if you were ok." the was a ghost of a smile on his face.

why would he come all the way over here to see if i was ok? ive never even met him...let alone,give him my address.

"how do you know where i live? are you some kind of creepy stalker or something?"

he bites his lip nervously.

"no.your...parents told me." he grinned.

as i stared at him,i noticed he was fidgeting with his fingers.

it was obvious he was nervous.

mom and dad haven't spoken to me since before the day of that bvd or whatever concert savanah wanted to go to on Saturday.so i wouldnt know if he was telling the truth or not.

"tell me why savanah is in the hospital."i demanded.

"well...uh..i think you know..you woke up in her hospital room yesterday." he struggled to say.

holy shit! i did? well. it explains why i woke up in that room....fuck!!

and the girl in the bed was...no...no...no

my jaw dropped.

"youre joking, right? please tell me youre joking." i immediately stood up straight, with my eyes and heart are about ready to leave my body.

he took another deep breath. "no.im not joking."

"no no no no" i thought as i ran towards savanahs silent room.

deep deep down i hoped that when i opened that door that she'll be there, about ready to kill me for even thinking about coming inside her room, or that she'd be sound asleep with her music blasting in her ears as she usually had them....anything would be better than her being in that hospital room.

i opened her door slowly,hoping she was there.but she wasnt..

for the first time,i actually saw her entire room.

posters all sorts of bands covered every inch of every wall in the room.i noticed she had already started on decorating the ceiling too.on one half of the room was covered with all kinds of black veil brides posters and print outs.

talk about not being obsessed...

in one corner there were a couple of guitars and a micro phone.

her stereo and CD collection stood against the wall that connected her room to mine.most likely because she knew her music would aggravate the hell out of me.

"wow." jinxx said as he walked up beside me.

he looked around the room "impressive." he added then smiled.

"this must be your room." he chuckled.

my fists clenched. "never in a million fucking years." i sigh in frustration and devastation

in one corner of the room closest to the closet i noticed a small stack of composition notebooks.

i gently knocked them over with my foot.

they all had a number and a single word carved into their covers...

7.credulous

8.schizophrenic

9.apathetic

10. people pleaser

11. senseless

12.egotist

tears formed in my eyes

"i wonder..." jinxx says over my shoulder.

"theres nothing to wonder about..get out." i say as i tried hiding my tears.

"what?" he looked shocked and confused.

"you heard me.get out!" i almost scream.

he sighed "well..if you say so.."

i turned my back towards him,wiping off the tears that rolled down my cheek.

"you know...it wasnt your fault." he calmly says as he puts a gentle hand on my shoulder.

"i thought i told you to leave."

"as you wish,your highness." he joked with a subtle smile.

i roll my eyes. "im getting a drink.stay here if you want..i dont fucking care."

it was the very beginning of my denial...

how could i have been so stupid to not completely see who that girl in the hospital bed was. FUCK! how was i supposed to know?! id figured she was in her room the entire time.since she was practically in there 24/7. DAMMIT!

"you mean water,right?" he asked,abit worried.

"no.why would i?"

"because...you dont need to drink..at your age."

rage and adrenaline flew through me. "let me tell you something,ok? im almost 19. i dont need any one telling me what to do or how to act.ive been through enough shit these past couple of days.so do me a huge favor and fuck off!" i stormed into the kitchen. he didnt follow.

good.the creep finally got the damn message.

i got out the hidden bottle of vodka in the cereal cabinet and opened it.

i chugged as much of it as possible.

"who needs a cups these days?"

i started to feel the buzz coming over me and i felt good.

i walked passed jinxx as i headed towards my room,with the bottle still in my hand.

he looked down at his feet in disappointment.

"please dont do this to yourself." he pleads still staring down at his feet.