Totally Jinxxed (book 1 of 3)

Out of touch so far (part 4)

(jinxx POV)

**2 weeks later**

it was about noon when I sat at my piano and realized I haven't eaten breakfast yet.

these past couple of weeks I've woken up at 8 am, every day. which even now was still unusual.

I didn't feel like cooking anything so I decided to go out and eat.

I drove to a small Italian restaurant, across from a park, only 10 minutes away from the house.

I ordered a takeout lasagna and headed back towards my car.

I looked up from my keys to see some one sleeping on a park bench.

it was brave of them to do so, since sleeping on public property was against the law here in california.

I walked over to the sleeping person in attempt to save them from being arrested.

I tapped them on the shoulder and they just turned around, still asleep,without a single sign of waking up.

the sleeping person happened to be a girl.

I stared at her, but not in a creepy way.

in a way she looked familiar some how.

but I couldn't pinpoint how I would've known her.

her lips and skin were pale.she looked as of she'd neglected her hunger and her long hair was dirty with grease.which probably meant she hasn't showered in awhile.

she held a bottle of sleeping pills closely to her chest.

and that's when it hit me...

I only knew one person that took sleeping pills..

I couldn't say a word.I had no words to say either.

I picked her up, along with the bag that she layed on top of as a makeshift pillow.

she softly cooed in my arms as she slept

my heart raced as I carried her to my car.

something it hasn't done in a long time..

I placed her in the front seat of my car and drove back home.

*at the house*

I carried her and the food inside.

once I placed the lasagna on the table, I layed her down on my bed.

she looked so different.soo...broken.

I never expected to see her this way.

I was soo sure she would be taken care of, no matter what.

the more I stared at her in a peaceful sleep, the more I remembered what I felt like the first time we actually met.

that feeling that I needed to protect her.that need to always make sure she was ok..

i remembered how i felt when she first smiled at me.

how she somehow always managed to make me forget every little thing that bothered me.

the way it felt when I got to hold her for the first time.

everything...

I worked soo hard to push away every single thought and feeling I had of her.

all that hard work, gone away in a single moment...

what have I done?