Totally Jinxxed (book 1 of 3)

I couldn't see the world there right infront of me

*tuesday morning*

I arrived at the back of my school and passed my exbestfriends.

"emo loving traitor."matthew mumbles.

they all laughed.

everyone I used to hang out with was there, except gabriel.which was weird because he was usually inseparable from them.

Brandon had his arm around kaylee, the same way he used to have it around me.

my heart dropped into my stomach. he replaced me so quickly...and with kaylee. how could he?!

tears formed in my eyes.

i pushed them back as much as i could and thought of something to say before i had the chance of breaking down right in front of them.

"i hope kaylee enjoys that small dick of yours brandon."

I turned away before he could say anything.

vincent and matthew burst into laughter

"she got you there man!" Matthew says before kaylee slapped him in the face pretty harshly.

I walked inside the school passing the goth kids.one smiled at me, the others gave me a disgusted glance.

I passed all the freshman who just several days ago where so eager to be a close friend of mine, now laughed at me as if I were a nobody.

I walked up to the emo kids and they turned their backs towards me.

I sighed and decided to go straight to my first class.alone.

*lunch time*

the day dragged on, up until now.

through out the day I deleted every single number in my phone that belonged to everyone who hated me now.only a few left remained.

I kept hearing horrifying words in the back of my mind...its only the beginning...its only the beginning...

I sighed as I grabbed a tray of lasagna, and walked towards an empty table.

I heard familiar laughing behind me.I ignored it as it got closer to me.

"ya know saph, I've always been envious of how your hair always looked soo pretty and naturally blonde." kaylee smiled.

I stayed silent.

"but I think you could use some... highlights." she grinned devilishly as she grabbed her plate of lasagna and smashed it on top of my head.

I took a deep breath as I stood up.

everyone in the cafeteria bursted into laughter and took pictures of my 'new look'

I wanted to run home and cry,but I couldn't because everyone would see how weak I've become.and that means she would win.what else was there for me to do?

"i was right.highlights do look good on you." she laughs.

I wasnt about to let her win, and let her make a fool of me.but practically the whole school had already seen me.

I clenched my hands into fists and with all the force in my body I quickly punched her in the face.

I felt the adrenaline flow through me as she fell to the ground.

within the next minute I was pinned to the ground by matthew and vincent.

kaylee got up and started punching me anywhere and everywhere I could possibly feel the most pain.

I just closed my eyes and took every single blow.although it hurt more than anything I've ever felt, physically. what made it worse was that I couldnt move or flinch if I wanted to.

I felt as if I've hit rock bottom.like i would never be able to go back as I was.

what have I become?

after 10 minutes of solid torture kaylee manages to stop beating me. and i open my eyes.

"what a fucking pussy you are saphire..I thought you'd atleast fight back." she smirked.

I stayed silent on the ground.

Matthew and Vincent let me go and walked away behind kaylee.

I got up, to see everyone in the cafeteria staring at me, completely silent.

I grabbed my bag and ran to the bathroom farthest away from the cafeteria.

I managed to get most of the lasagna out of my hair.but the bruises started to spread like wildfire.

is this what savanah felt like after every time we did this to her?

damn...

before I had the chance to break down and cry I left the school building towards my car.

I needed to go home.I needed to get away.and most of all,I needed a drink.

the thought of going back to school made me sick.I even hated the thought of even getting out of bed.but I have to face them all again if I really want to graduate and finally move as far away from LA and everyone I knew as possible.

only 10 more months left...until I don't have to see any of those assholes again.ever.

"only 10 more months" I reassured myself.

as soon as I got home I grabbed a beer from the fridge and chugged it as fast as I could. then grabbed another and repeated.

it was frustrating knowing beer was like water to me.Im nowhere near being buzzed.but this was all I had left.

I grabbed another beer and went into the living room to sit on the couch.

"my life was so perfect." I said as I buried my head in my hands.

"its all gone now."

I took a sip of the new beer.

"all because of savanah.."

"its all her fault!" I mumbled.

I chugged the rest of my last beer and walked off into my room.

sitting on the bed I grabbed my phone.looking through my few remaining contacts.

the only ones that remained were my parents, savanah, and Jeremy.

I never had the chance to find out who this Jeremy guy was.If he went to my school, then he probably hated me too.

I contemplated whether I should delete the number or not.

did Jeremy even goto our school?

another thought occurred in my mind, to just call him and find out, instead.

so I did...