After 2

Chapter 32

Michelle's pov

I feel numb. It feels as if my heart has been ripped out of my chest and trampled on. 
I was willing to give James anything but he in love with someone else now. I'm no longer going to be the one to make him happy. I guess it's finally time to let go.
He's right. We were the past. We barely worked then so what makes me think we could work now?
After everything we've been through I just thought I meant more to him than that. I thought he would've been willing to make it work again. But clearly I was wrong.
Maybe this is a sign, maybe James and I were never meant to be. Maybe we're better off strangers.
I suppose I'll have to live with that.  Just strangers with memories.
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I arrive at the mechanic workshop that Alfie studies in. I see him working on a car. He looks distressed.
"Hey goes nothing" I say to myself. I take a deep breath in and make my way over to Alfie.
"Hi Alfie" I smile. He looks up at me and just nods. 
"What's umm what's up?" I ask trying to start conversation.
"Nothing" he shrugs.
"Are you okay? You seem tense" 
He slams the hood on the car down, it makes me jump a little.
"I'm fine" he says and goes inside the small garage building. I follow him.
"Clearly not or else you wouldn't be so blunt" I'm starting to get annoyed.
"Listen Michelle" he turns to face me, "I like you, a lot, and I'd love to be with you but I'm not going to be somebodies second choice"
"Second choice? Is this about James? Look I was trying to get rid of old news so I can try and start a new beginning with you. I just had to talk to James to let him know how I feel about him and how I really feel about you"
He doesn't say anything.
"Alfie I'm sorry okay. I'll just go now" I'm sick of boys. I don't need one in my life. I start to walk away but Alfie stops me.
"Michelle wait. I'm sorry. I know you and James have been through a lot and I am willing to accept that. I just want you to know that I like you and was wondering if you'd be my girlfriend"
My heart flutters a little. Alfie's so sweet and innocent but he's not James. I've got to stop comparing everyone to him but I can't help it when I'm madly, deeply in love with him.
"Ye-yes" I stutter. I'm making a huge mistake.
I just know I'm going to regret it.