After 2

Chapter 33

James POV

Seeing the hurt in her eyes, seeing her whole demeanor change just hurt. Why is everything I say to her a lie. Why is the only true thing is the facts that I love her. Why did I have to ruin everything last year. So many mistakes. So many regrets.
We are each others worst enemy. We make each other happy yet we can't be together. I can't give her what she wants even if she thinks I can. I hope she can see what is right for her.
"Hey babe what's up?" Ella pipes up from couch. I nearly forgot about her. Shes sweet and beautiful and loving, but shes not Michelle. I know I cant compare everyone to her but what we had a was a great love and nothing can top that.
"We need to talk" i say without thinking. Can i really be with someone else knowing how deeply I love I am with Michelle? It's not fair
"What's wrong?" She asks so innocently
"I'm in love with..." I stop myself and take a breath. I can see out of the corner of my eye that's shes gleaming. This is going to suck. Breaking two girls heart in one day, "I'm in love with someone else. I'm sorry. I thought I was over her and I thought we had something special but the truth is, I cant do this anymore and I dont want to string you along. You deserve someone else." I look her in the eye and see shes devastated.
"Its umm it's okay I understand. I mean, it was kinda obvious" she laughs. "Heck, I think I still love Alfie if I'm honest" a single tear slides down her cheek.
"I'm sorry Ella"
"Me too James"
She stands up and gathers her things and heads for the door but before opening it she says, "it's not to late you know? To fight for Michelle, I know she still loves you and you love her despite being so corrupt. I'm sure you guys can work it out. Dont give up something you love if its worth fighting for."
"Thanks Ella"
She smiles and leaves. I'll never stop fighting for Michelle but I can tell shes exhausted. Shes not willing to fight anymore. Not for now at least.